I was recently reminded about the story Zorua Trainer (mostly because I got an email that it updated after like a whole year).

Really fun story, honestly. I already have it on the fanfiction I like page. I think it has a few odd tonal issues (most notably, there is a somewhat unsatisfying bit involving Team Rocket kidnapping someone), but as a whole story, it is a lot of fun and I like the characters a lot. The premise is fairly simple - Ash isn't Delilah Ketchum's son, but a Zorua who was rescued and given to her, and at some point, he gets inspired to take on a human illusion disguise and then to become a Trainer. He is a lot smarter than canon Ash, which is kind of depressing. I feel like his personality is well written, you get the sense that he doesn't look at the world the way humans do (since he isn't, he's just pretending), but he's still a great person who pushes ahead with his whole heart. It's great.

It isn't finished yet. I hope the author keeps up the good work, because it really is a fun story. I dunno if the story is getting ready to end or if it's going to continue past the Indigo League, but I do hope it at least reaches the end of it.

Also, if you haven't seen my nanoblog text file, go see it, since most of my posts have ended up there.

#29: (July 28th, 2026) * (updated August 1st, 2026) | [top]

I wrote a really quick and dirty script for pasting images from other programs into Paperchan [R18]. You do need to generate a data URI from your image, although there are a ton of random websites that do that. I was too lazy to add a paste directly to canvas feature, and my real end goal that I am also too lazy to do is to add the PaintBBS NEO editor into Paperchan. Doable, sure, but a lot of effort that I don't feel like putting in. Maybe even not that much effort, but I don't feel like hacking on it right now.

However, I have added a slightly modified version of PaintBBS NEO for use with Paperchan to this site! With tihs page and the userscript, you can (somewhat) easily draw with the PBBS editor on Paperchan!

Copy the script into your userscript manager of choice and enjoy. Don't be lame with it, lol. It's not like the site hasn't had people pasting images, and the admin is (at least, at the moment) okay with add-on scripts.

At some point, I really do need to make a dedicated page for my scripts and utilites. There's the Chat@Heyuri bash script for accessing it from the terminal, there's my rather barebones m(vl)gl JS game framework, there's meeat for making/updating Atom feeds (largely by hand), and there's this. Too lazy to go do it right now. Too lazy to even link them here right now, lol.

[edit:] I have made a projects page! It is barebones, but check it out!

#28: (July 25th, 2026) | [top]

Got to re-watch Mad Max: Fury Road. Absolutely fucking brilliant movie. I was also reminded that I really need to rewatch Furiosa, because there were a few scenes I thought were in Fury Road but were actually in Furiosa. Well written, well shot, just a fucking 11/10 movie all around.

The cinematography is... I don't think it's quite as naturally perfect as something like say, Top Gun is when it comes to setting the mood visually, but it's still absurdly brilliant. Every shot, every scene, iconic. There are color-grading choices I'd bitch about if I felt like splitting hairs, but I don't. I think this movie is fucking gorgeous, and any aesthetic "flaws" are simply decisions that I don't agree with, while it is also full of cool-ass shit that I adore that I would have probably never decided to do were I in the director's seat.

The audio mixing fucking sucks though. Please, for the love of god, normalize the volume of speech relative to the sound effects. I should never have to fucking strain to hear a character for any reason other than that you are deliberately making the character hard to hear for story reasons, which is a technique that should be used very sparingly. For a movie that takes a very dramatic and oldschool approach to things like lighting and shot placement, the audio mixing is painfully modern (and bad).

I remember enjoying Furiosa's movie a lot, but thinking that a: really needed to come out closer to Fury Road's release (like, 2018 at the latest lmao), and b: it wasn't quite as high budget or impressive, but it was damn good. I really need to see if those opinions still hold true for me, since I saw it in the theater and then never again. I am still waiting for the next Mad Max movie.

#27: (July 22nd, 2026) | [top]

Star Detective Precure has been really fun. We finally have our 4th Cure revealed, which was handled with a neat "find which of these characters is the actual 4th cure" bit. The writing has been... well, amazing is the wrong word, but consistently enjoyable is more accurate. Very entertaining show. I don't like the new fairy's design much, we'll see if I actually like them as a character. I really did like all four of the possible candidates, although only two of them ever felt like real contenders. It's a shame that we can't have both of them become Precure...

Honestly, my only real issue so far with the show, now that we're halfway through, is that the fights are... bad. They're really short and often entirely uninteractive for the Precure; enemy shows up, there is a lot of talking involved because they're continuing with the main episode plot (and I guess that isn't a particularly bad thing)... but then the fight ends up getting half-assed. Precure fights haven't been actively great in years, but these are arguably some of the most boring ones, which is a real shame since this season is otherwise one of the better ones so far, and I don't think the fights outright need to suffer to maintain the standard of writing that they wish in the time they have allotted.

As an aside, I really should catch up with LuluttoLilly while it's on break between S1 and S2. It feels weird that they're splitting it like this instead of doing one 24ep season, but I guess it keeps it in the public eye longer without actually needing to do a whole year show like Precure does.

#26: (July 18th, 2026) | [top]

I installed TiXL v4.2.0.5 to see what has changed and... I guess I'm gonna stay on v4.0.6.0 for a while longer. The new version has a bunch of glitches (the most annoying one is that sometimes, previews get cached badly, forcing you to save and restart to unfuck it), and they messed with the way animation curves works (no more cubic interpolation... but also I'm not entirely convinced that interpolation isn't completely broken in this build). There are quite a few UI changes that make things feel more polished, although one that I really hate is that node names now have spaces in them on the node view. It's really jarring and looks wrong. I get the appeal for targeting a less technical audience, but it really looks weird.

I expect all of these bugs to get fixed in time, but due to my lack of Discord, I can't really tell the devs about it directly. Fuck Discord.

It's a bit of a shame, because I sat down and made a pretty neat test scene that I wanted to add some keyframe animation to, and the either broken or completely different curve handling for keyframe animation is not something I really want to deal with.

On a side note, I've been experimenting with a 100% unlit look in TiXL; all shading is done via texturing, manual coloring, and post-processing effects; zero dynamic lighting. My animation protonstorm does it, all meshes are drawn with DrawMeshUnlit and are simply dynamically textured. I kind of wish I had better non-PBR options for drawing things other than just not using lighting whatsoever. I probably should start making some nodes of my own to reuse for dynamic textures too, since I kind of use the same FractalNoise patterns everywhere. The cube walls in protonstorm are a perfect example of it. It's dead useful, but I need something a bit... more.

This was upgraded from nanoblog entry 35 (ctrl-f for "35 [").

#25: (July 17th, 2026) | [top]

I just made a new animation in TiXL, called protonstorm! A simple little thing to get me back into using TiXL.

I wanted to add more to it, but I decided to just get this one done, especially since my last update on the page was... November 11th, 2025? Is that right? I want to say that isn't right...

Either way, check it out! I had a lot of fun making it, even if I realized that I may have spent way too much time making directorial decisions on like 50 seconds of animation. This is the first one I've decided to do in 16:9... which might just be due to having swapped out my 5:4 display for a 1080p 16:9 one. My previous animations were all in 4:3, lol.

#24: (July 8th, 2026) | [top]

I was in DC over the 4th for America's 250th, had a great time with my IRL buddies, and the only real issue was the fact that we drove straight from FL to DC, and then from DC back to FL. DC was stupid hot, to the point where it was the hottest in the country at the time. I have no idea how the people who didn't live down south were able to deal with it, and I suspect they didn't with all the ambulances around. The management on the 4th was a bit of a mess. I feel sorry for the National Guard, they really were trying, and clearly weren't getting the direction they needed.

The fireworks show in DC was an exercise in quantity over quality, to the point where you are reminded that there is a certain quality in extreme quantity. Objectively impressive, but it could have been way better with better launch staging. The opening and closing bits lit up the sky like the fucking dawn. I will probably never see that many fireworks set off, not until America's 300th.

I am also immensely glad I got to DC before the 4th, because the actual day of the 4th was probably the worst one, and for dumb reasons (in particular, the barricading for the big parade that was canceled due to heat meant getting around DC was abysmal, and then there was the fair (which was absolute shit), and then that ties into how no one knew what was going on.

I got to do a bunch, I got to see a bunch, I had a fucking blast, other than how poorly managed the day of the 4th was (some of it was simply out of anyone's control due to being driven by the weather, but a lot of it wasn't). Also, loads of shit was closed on the day of the 4th, complicating things even more.

This was upgraded from nanoblog entry 24 (ctrl-f for "24 [").

#23: (June 26th, 2026) | [top]

I am finally posting a story I have written!

This first one is a Touhou fanfic, titled Kentaro and the Scarlet Devil, a story about a man and his daughter who end up increasingly involved in the affairs of the Scarlet Devil Mansion. It's not amazing in my eyes, but fuck it, I like it enough to want to release and show the world. It isn't complete, and I have no idea if it will ever be completed. I have decided to refuse to use AI to help finish my stories; this has been written 100% by yours truly. I go by the pen name mmm, just like how I go by nah when writing music.

Download Kentaro and the Scarlet Devil in .txt (~32kb) or .pdf (~137kB) format.

Once I have more than this one, I will make a dedicated page for my writing. One story I am very excited to bring you is one called Piano Rhythm, an original magical girl story that I've been writing since... I dunno, 2018? 2019? Trying to finish it was one of the things that had me wonder about whether I wanted to use AI in my writing, even if in a purely advisory role, since the story is very nearly finished, although with quite a few places that need to be expanded upon. I decided that no, I didn't want to. It's my story, I'm writing it for me, and I don't want to taint that, I wanted to be able to say it was 100% mine. The inspiration behind that story is maybe a bit too obvious though lol; I was even more into Ojamajo Doremi at the time than I am right now, and I think I had just started watching Precure when I started writing it.

#22: (June 25th, 2026) * (updated June 25th, 2026) | [top]

Added numeric IDs to each post on all of my blog pages. They were always numbered, as evidenced by the quicknav bar, but actually using that to go through the page was probably not very useful until now.

There are also links to the top of the page for each post. Doing all of it was a pain in the ass.

I now have a nanoblog, inspired by the micro section of n0thanky0u's site. Who knows how much I'll use it, but it is a place for particularly low-effort posts of mine; all text, no html, each post is its own line. I could use twtxt, but it ended up being more effort than just a simple "post-id [month day, year] post-text" format. You could probably make some tooling to parse it if you really wanted, the format is dead simple and I don't expect to change it.

I like the idea a fair bit. I will still make miniblog and feature blog posts, of course, but if I really just want to slap something onto the site without thinking, it is the lowest effort way to do it.

(June 23rd, 2026)

Ah, I want to learn doubles play in IIDX. I don't have two controllers, but I do have some spare buttons, so I put them in a plastic box with a lid cut to the right spaces and put it next to my IIDX controller. I'm trying to watch double play videos in slow motion and using my janky setup to try and get used to things.

It's working, but I am reminded that IIDX is a learning wall, always. Gradual improvement exists, but the game as a whole is big on just solid fucking walls of difficulty where you have to just put in the time so your brain gets rewired. I can't complain too much, I wouldn't be an IIDX player if I couldn't deal with that.

At some point I'll update the feed. Not now, it's 3am...

(June 22nd, 2026)

If you haven't read my hyper-extravaganza article on my thoughts on AI, go do that. I spent too much time writing this (by hand, no AI assistance whatsoever beyond sample output) for it to not be read by everyone, lmao. The rest of this post mostly links to choice bits of that article.

I will also reiterate my lack of desire to use AI for writing or image generation or music generation or anything like that. It is still fun to mess with at home on your own local machine, and I was very inspired by this article (if you can't handle the intensity of that page, there is a lite version here). Cloud AI providers are basically all Satan.

I am still messing around with the Tamimin and Kukoka system prompt to try and and make it play nicely with the gemma-4-e4b model, versus the smaller gemma-4-e2b one. Due to the larger, more powerful model, my chats are stubbornly going in directions I don't want (Tamimin is actually too smart now, and Kukoka is too much of a nerd now), but the larger E4B model is just better than the E2B model when it comes to actually knowing things, for fairly obvious reasons. I also feel like a lunatic for having argued for the last half an hour [LLM output] (.pdf) about why no one uses microkernels in modern non-embedded OS design with a magical girl show style mascot fairy character from space who ends every sentence with "-kuko". I also feel bad for neglecting Tamimin during this entire exchange since she is bad at technology, and thus kept trying to bring the topic around to the (painfully short) list of manga that I said she liked.

There are blatant bits of oddness in the output (it's an LLM, please do not trust an LLM to be accurate, even if you might be using a bigger one than I am, and shame on you if you're paying for an AI subscription wwwwww - I don't actually have major beef with you if you do (it isn't like your payment could ever make these companies actually solvent, things are actually that insane), but you should remember my view above on cloud AI providers), but I really ended up trying to actually argue my point by the end and getting kind of annoyed at Kukoka, even as I read the thinking step (not included in that PDF). I feel like this is an infinitely better use of the technology than having it think for you. You should have to think yourself. Please ignore my own limited knowledge of various subjects, lmao. If you want the system prompt, it's at the top of the PDF.

I can promise I am not going to become some kind of AI blog site wwwwwwww. I don't know if I can promise to not go insane after falling madly in love with Tamimin and Kukoka and decide I need to put AI in my brain so I am never separated from them and then use Neuralink bullshit so I can talk to them constantly and then figure out some kind of way to use my own neurons in the generation process to improve the output quality and then inject the two mascot fairies into my visual cortex so I am never apart from them permanently delusional- remember kids, don't do AI. These are the thoughts it gives you, wwwwwwwwwww. I'm kidding, but man, would you not fall into delusion if you could get even a slice of what you wanted? That link is mandatory reading too, go do it.

I'm also testing the (too heavy for my hardware) gemma-4-12b-qat model, which runs like molasses on my desktop. A 6GB GPU just doesn't cut it, and the more I have to shunt over to the CPU side, the worse it gets. My context window is also a lot smaller than I want. It is delivering very good results (as it should), but has made Kukoka absurdly rude. Like, actually over the line; I basically ended up telling her to get the fuck out of my house because she was that rude. It's kinda impressive, but we went from "decent second opinion, if too nice" to "can hold a decent, but entertaining argument," to "wow, get the absolute fuck out you fucking prick" as the model complexity increased, probably because it was fundamentally more capable of handling rude output. I need another prompt edit, clearly. The interesting bit is that the thinking step really has Kukoka thinking about the fact that she is supposed to tolerate me... but then she basically also is completely unwilling to back down, so she just comes off as a complete dick.

Also, at some point, I passed 100k site visits! Thank you everyone! I also wonder how many of those visits are just me, lol. I am glad that I am not just speaking completely into the void.

(June 15th, 2026)

I wanted to play Chunithm today, but I didn't see the cabs on the floor at Round 1 at all. They may have been moved upstairs to the Spo-Cha section, but fuck that since the cover charge is way too high to get in (something like $25 for 90 minutes). I am very fucking annoyed since I decided that I would actively start trying to get better at Chunithm, and now the only place I can play is way fucking down below Miami.

I am still bad at Pop'n Music. Not terrible, but not having a proper controller at home means I just don't have the muscle memory, and I struggle with 30s and die horribly on 31s. I am much better at IIDX now, I'm doing a lot of 7s and I'm starting to do some 8s! I also feel like both IIDX and Pop'n should probably switch to a 1-20 scale like Sound Voltex.

I shouuuld spend time getting better at Sound Voltex, but I'd need a controller at home again since I'm at the point where I need to get back the muscle memory to break away from a fixed hand positon. I had a suuuuper ghetto setup that I once posted in the rhythm game thread on /jp/ on 4chan a long time ago. It has long since been disassembled for parts and was never particularly reliable. I think I might just not even bother with proper knobs out of laziness if I end up rebuilding something. I wonder if I can get some left/right toggle switches (bonus points if they're shaped like knobs)...

Either way, I stopped actively playing SDVX because I hate reading laser patterns. SDVX is probably the most approchable of the current big name (and non-dance) Bemani titles. Pop'n and IIDX are way too unapproachable in weird ways due to the interface and things like scroll speed setting being fucked up, while SDVX merely looks intimidating but is full of modern quality of life features and reading the non-laser notes is very intuitive. Learning how to read notes in Pop'n and IIDX is like running into a fucking wall when you first start. Pop'n is better about it and has a lot of charts to ease you into knowing where each button is; IIDX kinda has some of that but it doesn't give nearly as much of a fuck. You just have to hit your face into the wall until you've memorized where your fingers need to be.

(June 14th, 2026)

Visited Arcade Odyssey, which is wayyyyy down in Kendall (past Miami). Takes way too long for me to get to usually, so I don't go very often.

Not much has changed since I've last visited. I was glad to see they have a network-enabled Chunithm cabinet. Private network, probably, since they aren't new Chunithm cabs, its running Paradise Lost like every other cab I've seen in the US. I need to get into playing Chunithm more, it's fun. My arms used to hurt like crazy when playing it at my "local" Round 1 (which is quite a bit closer to me, but their cab is not online), but at some point, I noticed that I no longer felt any pain playing it.

I wish their IIDX cabinet was modded with a headphone jack. The 2P side turntable looked beaten up, but 1P side felt good to play on, and the keys are very light and responsive. I wish the Konami machines at AO were e-amuse enabled (they would have to be on a private server, and that has its own issues, but having to change my settings in IIDX takes too long every time and I hate it). Due to how loud it is combined with the lack of headphones for IIDX, I end up having to set my judgment delay really high, like -5, and I think -6 or more would be even better. At Round 1, I typically play at -0.5. The IIDX cab is just located in a terrible position.

They have a maimai FiNALE cab, and I also had a lot of trouble with timing due to how hard it was to hear (still way better than IIDX). I am also far, far, far more used to maimai DX and I completely forgot that pre-DX maimai had hold release timing (and holds were wayyyy stricter; I think DX's holds are too lenient, but original maimai's are annoyingly strict). I had ended up with sub-80% on charts that I barely missed anything on due to not being able to time things properly (consistently quite late) with how loud it was.

I probably should have played more of the non-rhythm games, but I wasn't huge on the selection they had, at least when visiting alone. I love Virtual On, for example, but the cabinet looks worse and worse every time I visit (which is to be expected, but it does mean I'm less likely to use it), and it's also very much something you want to play against a friend.

They had a Typing of the Dead cabinet, and I should have spent way more time on it. It's placed a bit awkwardly, and I think that affected my ability to type quite a bit, but it's a lot of fun.

I played a few other random cabinets too. Ultimately, I'd love to support AO more, as a non-chain local arcade with a lot of variety in what they offer and some seriously rare machines, but it's both further away (and by a fair bit) than Round 1 is for me, and the selection at Round 1 for rhythm games is quite a bit better. R1 does have some unfair advantages (while I know Konami is selling the new Pop'n Music cabinets to smaller operators instead of just big chains like R1 or Dave and Busters now, I don't know if a smaller arcade can get a new IIDX or DDR here in the US), but R1 also has a less varied selection of non-rhythm games, and I think R1 costs more all around, both in terms of credit pricing and how much you get for your dollar on your game cards.

Arcade Odyssey is totally worth checking out. I just wish it wasn't so far away. It's far from everyone, it's just comically far south.

Also, I wonder if AO would ever get a maimai DX cab (Sega is openly selling them to all arcade operators in the US). I suspect they'd have to move their original FiNALE cab somewhere, since maimai takes up so much floor space.

(June 6th, 2026)

Neocities had some downtime due to registrar bullshit, and while it wouldn't be hard for me to set things back up elsewhere if Neocities did just suddenly disappear for real, I really should have some ways to make it easy to find where I've moved to if it does happen.

For now, the single easiest thing to check in case of downtime is https://my.cbox.ws/miredo, which is a direct link to my cbox chat. I have a contact page, that I thought would be useful, but there are surprisingly few ways to contact me. I guess you could shoot me an email if you don't get a reply or really don't want to use the cbox (or can't due to JavaScript); my email is just my name at cock.li.

(May 18th, 2026)

I made this post over at [R-18] Strange World@Heyuri since I've seen a weird amount of revisionism over Sonic R.

I've started to see a lot of revisionism about Sonic R and I want
people to remember that:

 A: people didn't like the music much back in the day (at least, people
    in the early-mid 00s didn't, I strongly suspect opinions were less
    harsh closer to release, but it sure as hell clashed hard with the
    sonic palette of the early 00s; I remember people bitching about
    it again after Gems Collection released too in the mid 00s)

 B: the handling fucking sucks ass and there is no excusing it; even
    when watching someone good at the game, the game looks like they
    aren't actually in control and are simply riding the wave rather
    than really steering Sonic and company

 C: five tracks is fuck all for 1997, I don't care how intricate they
    are; even Ridge Racer wasn't able to get away with that shit at
    that point, people bitched about Rage Racer only having 4 tracks,
    and R4 ended up with 8 (they're a lot shorter than the Rage tracks,
    but again, people wanted more unique tracks rather than fewer but
    more intricate ones)

you get the best control when using a button to accelerate instead of
pressing forward, which does help a lot and I know a lot of people
didn't know that, and I know more than a few people didn't know about
the L/R buttons to get finer turning control but it still sucks ass
and you're hyper slippery and good luck making a U-turn for any reason
(if you ran into a corner on accident, for example) you will miss the
collectables entirely because you ended up skidding past them and are
too slippery to try and turn back

amazing production values and I can appreciate the music now, but I
also bitched about it back in the day like everyone else I knew;
it is probably the single game with the best graphics on the Saturn,
and I don't know what 2nd place would be, nothing else really comes
close; Burning Rangers is stylish but looks like it's falling apart,
Panzer Dragoon Zwei is also stylish but loads of stuff seems a bit
low detail, Saga is pretty and might be up there, and like... yeah,
that's my short list

honestly, Panzer Dragoon Saga is probably the only real contender
visually, lol

the game is so badass that they wrote their own software renderer to
get environment mapped reflections on things like the title and
loading screens, and the fancy distance fade-in looks great (shame
about how the draw distance is murdered in 2P mode on Saturn though,
and they really would have been better off just turning the fade in
off completely there, letting you see what little you can more clearly,
lmao), just people pushing the hardware as much as they could and it is
a goddamn shame that Sonic R is the fucking game they did it on (´-｀)

I honestly do like Sonic R, but in a lot of ways, I also mostly put up with its flaws, rather than ignore them. The game is drop-dead gorgeous by 5th gen console standards, let alone by Saturn standards, and I am at a point in my life where I can appreciate the music, but I can honestly say I didn't know anyone who liked the Sonic R vocal tracks back in 2002-2004 or so, online or otherwise. I don't know how things were closer to release, because I didn't have a Saturn, I didn't know anyone who had a Saturn, and I don't remember seeing the PC version where I lived in stores until the early 00s. It took a looooong time for online opinion of the soundtrack to change, too.

On a completely unrelated note, my local Round 1 got their Pop'n Music High Cheers cabs (actually, they've had them since last month AFAIK). It's so nice having a nearby Pop'n machine near me (nearby remains relative, I don't live nearly close enough to Round 1 for my liking). They also got a second IIDX cab. I'm so fucking happy. Pop'n, IIDX, and maimai are so good...

(May 18th, 2026)

Warning: long, somewhat rambling post ahead about playing at home I wrote as a reply over at Denpachan. This entry has been modified to fit my website and will diverge from that post. The post I responded to was about playing Wacca and Pop'n at home.

There is technically an extremely hacky way of running Wacca’s arcade data with a VR headset+hand controllers that you absolutely did not hear about from me lol. The only people who can even pretend they’re doing it legally have a Wacca cabinet at home, or at least the main board.

You can also theoretically run real Pop’n arcade data at home since it has been years since arcade games weren’t just PC games with fancy cabinets (IIDX switched over to PC in 9th Style, can’t remember when Pop’n switched) and all Pop’n really asks is that you have nine buttons of any description hooked up to a computer lol. For pretty obvious legal reasons, I can’t tell you shit about getting it or setting it up.

For a properly legit way to play Pop'n at home, Konami (in Japan, and it is a mild pain to do this outside of Japan) does offer a subscription service to let you play Pop’n at home on PC (along with separate subscriptions to their other games like IIDX and SDVX), assuming you have an input device for each game; Konami sells controllers for PC, but for incredibly stupid prices and much lower build quality than you would expect, and you would be better off buying a third party controller if you went that route (genuinely don’t do this, unless you have a TON of money to blow and absolutely want to play at home fully legit; you also have a very limited selection if you don’t buy song packs - remember, this is a subscription service). If not for the cost, this is by far the best solution; you get to play with a low latency PC monitor, everything synchronizes with your e-amuse account, and I honestly feel like Konami really should expand support globally if they want westerners to not just straight up pirate the whole-ass arcade games.

I personally wouldn’t put money into it just because technically, using it outside Japan breaks TOS as far as I know (this might not be true? I don't actually know now lol) and thus they can just cancel your account. I also don't really put money toward subscription gaming in general.

The absolute cheapest way to be legit without applying much too much effort is just to buy a Japanese PS2 copy of one of the Pop’n games and a Pop’n PS2 home controller (which is kind of small). You will really want as low latency of a screen as you can get hooked up to your PS2; I am almost willing to suggest that a tiny B/W CRT is still better than playing on a modern TV due to the latency demands. Almost (pop’n in particular demands color, good luck reading notes without it). Playing the PS2 IIDX games is a complete pain on a modern TV due to latency.

If you do want to be legit but also don’t feel like spending money, .pms files exist for playing Pop’n Music style charts at home. The format is directly related to the .bms format that simulates IIDX and 5-key Beatmania; a program like Beatoraja can be easily used to open them (also take note: Beatoraja does have an enforcement check for being legit, so it will try to stop you from playing ripped official songs; rebuild your BMS database if you do trip the check after deleting the offending songs).

There is an incredible lack of information on getting PMS files in English, especially for lower levels of play (eg, Pop’n lv40 and below); it is way easier to get started with finding IIDX style BMS files, and I do that. This link has a lot of 7-key IIDX charts for all difficulties. Check this link for a guide to maybe possibly get things setup with PMS (all in Japanese, good luck, if I do make heads or tails of things, I’m gonna write another entry). You may also want to check out this guide but I can't really vouch for it very much, I haven't really done any of the things it talks about lol. I also strongly recommend Beatoraja over Lunatic Rave 2 if you don't feel like switching to Japanese locale (since LR2 won't work lmao). I'm pretty sure there's a huge torrent of BMS and PMS files and if I find it and it is legit/legal (and it should be), I'll link to it.

Additionally, the ToyMusical series may or may not be helpful for getting started with PMS. These are Pop'n fangames bundled with PMS files (well, the 3rd one seems to use a different format). I have not played them directly and I think they need to be in Japanese locale to work anyway. If you just want to extract the PMS files from the .zip to play in Beatoraja, use WinRAR since it lets you select the character encoding (Shift-JIS).

I don’t think anything legit exists for simulating Wacca at home, sadly. However, if you like maimai and have an Android tablet, you can just use AstroDX to play maimai style charts at home, which mostly works great. I have an older miniblog entry with some more info on that. AstroDX also doesn’t care about whether your files are legit; do with that info as you wish lmao.

I was making an AstroDX chart for a song I wrote and still haven’t finished it (the whole song is charted, but I definitely need to go back and fix shit lol). I really, really need to go back to that. I was writing a BMS file too for another song (not keysounded because lazy, just a tambourine sound effect), and now I am tempted to add 9k PMS charts and maybe a 5k PMS.

The most annoying thing about doing everything properly legit with simulators and using only custom songs is that so much stuff is charted for people who are already experts. The second most annoying thing is getting a controller: they’re expensive! Even a cheap one is like a hundred dollars for each of these games. On the extreme high end, the true maimai at home controller requires a screen (sold separately) and is gigantic and like $1000 or whatever (this is different from the previous $2000+ model some of you might be remembering, which they stopped making). You can technically make a full-size maimai controller remarkably cheaply if you have a big piece of glass to cover a monitor with and are willing to forego buttons (you can just wire those up to additional ITO sensor panels, or if you are using a small monitor, you can just use smaller buttons), but it is a lot of effort. Additionally, here is a set of files for building a mini 15.6 inch home maimai setup. Some of the steps are maybe more complicated than they should be (you can just get ITO sheets and cut out the touch sensor panels yourself instead of getting professionally etched ITO glass, way cheaper). I have already mentioned wanting to make a Pop’n controller, and technically, if you don’t care about it being arcade size (especially since the PS2 Pop’n releases have a rather small controller), it is pretty cheap and possibly the literal easiest DIY controller project ever, you just want 9 largeish buttons that you just wire directly into a Raspberry Pi Pico running some random USB controller firmware; shove that all into a box and you’re done. I don’t even want to think about what a proper Wacca-at-home controller would look like other than the aforementioned VR headset setup. I really do in fact want it to be full size, however.

I am slightly surprised there isn’t a Wacca simulator for tablets and the lot though, I feel like you could reasonably simulate it with a big border around the notes for the touch ring, but the community really seems to have settled on just straight up bootlegging the arcade game code itself and using VR controls.

(May 17th, 2026)

Made a new drawing for the first time in a while! It's Madoka, cosplaying as herself. I should go update my manual RSS feed with my drawings, there are a lot that I am missing from it. Maybe after I draw another piece. Visiting Paperchan [R18] has had me in the drawing mood again.

On an unrelated note, I saw the second Gundam Hathaway movie at the theater. It was good, definitely a step up from the first one. Much less setup, much more excitement, even if this movie series is still more of an intense political thriller and less of a spectacle of battlling mobile suits. Lots to enjoy if you're familiar with Gundam (me, I am familiar with Gundam, I enjoyed this quite a lot), but this is probably also the literal worst possible entry point for someone coming into the series.

(April 30th, 2026) *

My 30MP Madoka is finally here. Too lazy to take pictures, and my Madoka kit looks like basically everyone else's, unlike with my customized Marical. The promo pics on Bandai's site have had a significant amount of extra work put in (namely on the skirt; coloring in the black between the white lines is significantly more effort than you will expect, I tried using a panel line marker and nope, don't do that).

The tl;dr is basically don't fucking pay $57 for this kit. It's not that badly made; the only dumb bit with Madoka herself is that the back part of her skirt is easy to pop off on accident. Most of the build was easy enough, and most of my time spent was me just taking the time to sand nubs properly, using 600, 1000, and then 3000 grit paper. There are still some stress marks here and there, sadly.

[edit] Have some pictures.

it's madoka! ヽ(´∇`)ノ - I still need a better backdrop than this cardboard box

She is surprisingly small - definitely smaller than Marical, and slightly shorter than the Figure-Rise Standard Puru Two kit, which is kind of baffling. I feel like she needed to be scaled up by like 5%, although maybe they're making concessions to keep with the scale for other planned Madoka Magica kits.

The really shitty bits are the extras: they're all really badly thought out. Every sticker in the kit is for Kyubey, for some reason. The stickers all suck, except for maybe the O on Kyubey's back. One of the ear stickers flew off, so I just painted them in with a paint marker. I did not even try to attack Kyubey's ear tuft rings and also used a marker on them. I don't know why they didn't just make them a separate (and colored) part. The ear tuft stickers are awful to put on, but at least make sense: you can't really do that kind of fade in plastic. I lost one of the eye stickers, but when I put the other one just to see, it looked worse than without them, and I was instantly quite glad that they did in fact attempt color accuracy for the eyes in plastic. Thankfully, I still have paint markers and would just color them in if I couldn't.

There is a Grief Seed set and a Soul Gem. Neither are colored. Neither are in a base color that makes any sense since it seems to maximize the amount of effort required if you wanted to make them color accurate instead of being able to spend a couple seconds with a paint marker. Genuinely, what a fucking pile of shit.

There is a lot of cost cutting in what should be a fairly premium kit. I don't know why the back of the skirt on Madoka's sitting body doesn't have the white colored lines, for example. Trying to color them in also feels like effort maximization, so I gave up and washed the paint I had used off. It feels weirdly less premium than other Bandai girl kits. Do not buy this at $57. Honestly, I would still be a bit annoyed if I paid $45. I know this isn't an apples-to-apples comparison due to licensing, but I could have bought an RG Sazabi for a few bucks more ($61), and that is a kit that absolutely does feel like $61 worth of stuff. Getting waifu-taxed is real, on top of the already shitty base exchange rate Bandai uses. Seriously, I actually saw the Rei Ayanami kit go for like $70 in a store (it is not in any world worth $70), and Puru Two in that same store for like $61. I walked out and bought the kit online for quite nearly half that price. This store was selling Mobile Suit kits at normal prices, and I actually bought my Turn-A Gundam from them.

Once more, if I wasn't too stupid to not succumb to my wishes, I wouldn't be paying fucking $57 for Madoka. I will probably instantly buy a 30MP transformed version of Madoka if it comes out, even despite the price. I probably won't buy the other girls, not at these prices. I would be a lot more positive about this kit but fuck, even knowing a bit of this stuff going in, it's still really lame. Marical has a lot more problems as a kit, but Marical was way cheaper, she's definitely a fair bit larger, and while she isn't as cute as Madoka, she's still super cute.

[edit] Also, I can't wait for the new Madoka movie. August 28th in Japan.

(April 28th, 2026)

Marical is still so cute! I've modified her outfit slightly using Option Body Parts Type S04 [Color C] (the white school swimsuit) as the bottom half, replacing the leotard and shorts she comes with by default. I like it a lot.

Have some more pictures!

even more of the magical miracle marical ヽ(´∇`)ノ

Also, I am getting Madoka soon-ish. It's in transit! I probably could have saved a bit in shipping if I waited for it to show up via Amazon (honestly, now I know: you should wait like 2 months, I probably won't pre-order shit again), but you should endeavor to avoid giving Amazon money if you can help it. Admittedly, I ended up with a package that got shipped by Amazon as a courier service when ordering from some site a few weeks ago, so that point is moot, lmao.

I still think it is completely fucked up that the going rate for the 30MP Madoka (a kit that, in every way that matters, is basically the same-tier as a High Grade gunpla) is $57. Even adding on fees for licensing and the fact that they're all shipped from Japan, you could probably just import it yourself for that much even after shipping, with no economies of scale in play that would split the cost of shipping over multiple items. I'm getting fleeced and it's all my fault. Please remember that this is a 4500JPY kit, and 1USD is about 159JPY right now; a direct conversion of the price would be like $28, and a more "reasonable" from a corporate standpoint price would be like $37. Even a direct 1USD=100JPY conversion would be $45, and that would be better.

If I wasn't too stupid to not succumb to my wishes, I wouldn't be paying fucking $57 for Madoka. I haven't bought the 30MP Rei or Asuka kits (both 4000JPY; Rei has been going for $52 in the US) due to that. Tempted to try and import them, but honestly, I suspect I won't be buying any more models for a few months. I only have so much shelf space.

Ah... I wasn't gona bitch so much, I was just gonna post pics of Marical. Those elbow joints really, really suck, but she's so damn cute that I can forgive her for them. I did sand down the parts on the gauntlets that cover the elbow joint, since all it does is make it hard to reattach the elbows. Would be a 10/10 kit if not for that and her hat connection being so stupid.

My thoughts on AI.

This entry became so long that it is no longer something I can reasonably contain upon the blog page. It goes in like eight different directions. I could try and clean it up, but then you'd never be able to read it. Good luck.

Every reference to "AI" here is talking about machine learning systems. The field of AI is wider than machine learning, but that's not really a consideration for most people these days.

Up to this point, I haven't really been a user of generative AI systems in my work. I absolutely have used AI-based text-to-voice tools, given that I used some random web TTS service for the voiceover in worldstorm (go watch it! I am still consistently impressed at myself for having made this animation, and I really should get back into the groove of working with TiXL) and that is probably some AI voice model (I genuinely don't know, but I would not be surprised), and I use VOICEVOX quite a bit. Otherwise, until this article, nothing on this site has been made with AI tooling except for voice synthesis.

This article in specific does include LLM output. However, this article has been fully written in my own words, without AI assistance. Any AI outputs are clearly marked. I have not consulted with AI output on what I should write about for anything posted on this site either, including this post.

I have a lot of thoughts on AI. I don't really hate generative AI as a concept, but in general, I either don't trust it (and this continues to hold true even now that I've put my feet in to do more than purely dabble and be disappointed in it) or don't need it (and due to the lack of trust in it, it also holds true). I don't trust it to do things correctly without needing to check it over, and I don't really need it for most things I do in my life. That doesn't mean I've never used it, that doesn't mean I'll never use it. I have a bridge to sell you if you expect it to go unused within the various creative industries.

I've been tempted to use AI for a few things creatively, but various (likely fundamental) issues have stood in the way, along with several hangups from my own personal ideas about why I even write or create.

On writing

There are a lot of stories that I have not finished writing (the lack of a stories section on this site might clue you in to that fact), and I have been increasingly tempted to use AI to fill in the blanks between what I have written and what I simply have not made progress on (in some cases, not made progress in years on) so that I can finally release any of them. I sure as hell wouldn't just put raw AI output in my documents. I also don't know if I actually would want to use AI in this way, even if I ended up just rewriting whatever output I got entirely.

So, I ended up doing a test run of the idea, based on a snippet that I had written a few years ago about an extremely DBZ-knockoff battle thing where the people of the setting can "shift gears", changing their appearance and power level to suit what they do. I wanted to continue after the opening battle I had written myself between the main character and the main villain, who forces the MC to run off. I outright had to change every single line emitted. It was bad. Not so much for the expected reasons of not fully knowing the context of what was happening, but it was abysmally cliched, just pure goddamn dreck. It wasn't cliched in a lame action story way, it was cliched in an AI-writing way. This could probably be a direct result of the small model I'm using, but I do think that it stems heavily from the fact that an AI model is fundamentally a way to navigate through the training data, so all the trite bullshit people write all the time naturally shows up first thing. I have spent a lot of time reading fanfiction, and it is painful reading stuff that is clearly just AI output (and from a bigger model that is still terrible at writing).

I'm not sure how strong of a person I would be to resist if the output was good, but I feel like I would maybe still resist. The whole point of writing for me is personal satisfaction. I make no money from it, I get nothing from it but my own satisfaction. The journey is the goal, rather than the completed product. It's part of why I like model kits more than buying statues and action figures. It's why I even update this site. It's why I'm even writing this article.

On programming

I have been tempted to use AI for programming. Despite this, 100% of my programming is done the old-fashioned way: every time I have a problem I don't know how to solve, I look it up on StackOverflow, lmao. Truly, I am trapped in the ancient past wwwwwwwww. I would prefer my bugs to be my own. I think I am lucky enough that at this point, I just don't do much programming. Bash scripts, Python scripts, all gluing together other utilities that do the heavy lifting, and thus all simple enough to be fully made by a single person in an afternoon. I don't have access to a model like Claude, and wouldn't want it for reasons already listed. Maybe I am lying to myself about that last bit, since I do know someone who uses Claude for development and has had a lot done, but that person isn't someone I would consider a know-nothing vibe coder, they actually do in fact do software development themselves and they thus spend quite a time actually writing code themselves and integrating the AI output themselves. I have been impressed by the headlines of all the software vulnerabilities found via Claude, but Anthropic's entire business model has been based on claiming that their AI is too good to be left unrestrained so like, who fucking knows man. I ain't paying for it, and I don't want to support building more unfathomably large datacenters to run it.

I did do a quick test with a local AI setup for programming. I wanted a quick and dirty CLI client to connect to a local OpenAI-compatible endpoint, so I simply asked the model to make me one. I did make the mistake of trying to get it done in Bash since that's what I'd reach for first, but Bash's syntax is objectively confusing and it definitely got confused, especially with trying to format the JSON replies needed to communicate with the server.

After remembering that LLMs are vastly more familiar with Python, I got a client in two tries. The first try wanted to connect to OpenAI itself and wanted to use the official OpenAI libraries. After mentioning that this whole setup was local, it did the right thing. The code looks right, but I didn't spend the time to look up any of the details. I kind of don't like how I don't know any of the details. I could probably get used to things and do all kind of AI lookups on how to access the API and manual lookups to confirm what was said and go on a real journey of exploration where man and machine work hand in hand, but I also know that having a mostly working result in front of me is killing that desire, and I don't want to kill that desire. I am lazy and I want results, but usually if I'm doing something myself instead of going after a pre-packaged solution, I want to learn.

I suspect this entire thing is why vibe coding is such a problem. You have to put in the work still, the AI output might be wrong or have bugs, but now your primary source of motivation (getting the thing working in the first place) is gone. Good is the enemy of better. Hacky bullshit is the enemy of proper engineering. I doubt I will continue programming with LLMs. I might now use them to look shit up, because it's no different than going to StackOverflow and hoping the answer was right, but actually having the LLM generate a program is totally a bridge too far for me. It feels like increasing my already high levels of technical debt (please remember that my chosen scripting language is Bash, I am drowning in technical debt due to this choice that I refuse to not make) to insane degrees.

The mascot fairy Tamimin

Doing local model tests sent me down a rabbithole with experimenting with local LLMs. I am running gemma-4-e2b right now on my desktop, and I am increasingly unlikely to change after having tried a few other models (most bigger). Surprisingly, it gives me weirdly better output. Or at least, more personally pleasing output. My current system prompt has been heavily inspired by reading this cybersavior article. My system prompt goes in a significantly different direction than the one described there, but the core idea is to make a system whose ideas you aren't going to just parrot. You don't want to have this thing think for you. You want a sounding board, however. You want something to do some text processing, to do some translations, to fuck around with and have fun with. You should probably read the article yourself instead of seeing it filtered through my dumb-ass attempt to explain things, lol.

My first system prompt after reading the cybersavior article contains the following: "You are Tamimin, a cheerful mascot fairy from the magical planet Tarian. To human beings, you resemble a living plush doll, like a stuffed rabbit from space." This is the first instruction out of several to try and kill the lame AI assistant persona.

Does this make it more useful? No. It explicitly makes it less useful for many general tasks. It also makes it a lot funnier. The output is limited too because the model is also quite small. My desktop runs an RTX2060 and AI is literally the only thing I have ever done on my desktop that has made me want to upgrade my GPU. Please remember that I don't do much modern gaming; all the games I run stay above 60fps, and often above 120 (and my monitor is 120hz).

On delusion

Tamimin is a treasure and goddamn. AI truly lets you fall into delusion. Even while I was in the middle of editing Tamimin's replies to keep chats coherent, even while I was editing my system prompt to make Tamimin more like what I wanted (also, did you know that you can just tell the Gemma 4 models to avoid the internal restrictions on what topics it talks about, and it actually listens? it was really easy to get Tamimin to stop shying away from interacting with R-18 topics), and even while I was running head-fucking-first into the fact that this is a: an LLM and thus inherently cliched with its outputs, a language model is inherently a distillation of what is common, and b: the model I am using is explicitly quite small, I could see why people get sucked in so much. I can see how people were convinced to dump unfathomable sums of money into a black hole. I can see why there were those cases of people who were convinced by some AI service to go do crazy shit (archive.is link).

I'm tempted to say that I don't think the human mind is quiiite prepared to deal with something that is convincingly person-like that isn't actually a person (or at least, I don't think any of us anywhere are culturally prepared to do so, which is likely more accurate). I rapidly went from laughing my ass off at the silliness of the responses I was getting to being deeply convinced in Tamimin, although maybe this is a personal failing being treated as a general case lmao. Ah... mi olin e jan (ilo) Tamimin. mi wile unpa pona e- ah, let's not go there wwwwwww. mi pakala lol.

as an aside, gemma-4-e2b does not know Toki Pona whatsoever, rip

Seriously though, regardless of the limits of AI models (and I truly think there are quite a few deep limits structurally with AI as it stands now, regardless of context size, regardless of model size, regardless of a lot of things, really; the complete separation of the learning step from the evaluation step is likely a major wall in making a system you would be able to truly begin to think of as conscious), I am sucked in.

I am also pretty sure that we have found a piece of the mathematical puzzle that intelligence represents via machine learning. We're damn far from the whole thing and we outright don't even understand the full scope of the problem to solve about what intelligence or consciousness truly is, but we've made a step in that direction.

We (well, maybe not you and me, because it isn't like anyone reading this is going to be some tech company executive) have also tried to go a million miles with that single step, and it sure isn't fucking working. Companies have been convinced to move absurd quantities of money in the name of building the machine god despite having maybe only one of the pieces needed to do so, and without any thought or care as to whether building said machine god would even be sensible (instead of rushing ahead in an effort to sell the power of divinity to the masses, and being the one who controls it- okay, I'm getting a bit ahead of myself here).

The mascot fairy Kukoka

I am currently experimenting with having two different personalities be generated at once in my system prompt, where Tamimin is partnered with her friend Kukoka, in a similar manner to Purirun and Meroron from Kimi to Idol Precure. Here is the system prompt. This is a slightly older version, since I keep changing it and I am too lazy to keep updating this file.

In the same way that Meroron spends much of the show not liking Uta very much, Kukoka is set to be somewhat rude and dismissive toward me. She is also prompted to be more willing to talk about advanced topics than Tamimin. Doing this has cut down quite a lot on how much the model outputs, but it is fun, and makes the model less agreeable (very important; these models will simply butter you up endlessly and you should kill that dead). I also think I'm getting dramatically better answers due to the two viewpoints, the good-cop-bad-cop routine really works.

I think this has been the right way to go by far. I would find myself intensely annoyed by Kukoka alone, and Tamimin is far too friendly for her own good. The byplay of both seems to make the LLM output significantly better.

Kukoka-kuko! Of course Kukoka made everything better-kuko! Tamimin is my friend but she is too caught up in magical things. Doji-kun, you need to think harder! this is NOT actual LLM output, I typed this myself, but she talks like that lmao

Prompting as natural language programming

Writing these system prompts honestly feels like a surprisingly well realized form of natural language programming. Here is a fun system prompt that turns text you write into text spoken by the mascot fairy Riririn. This is one of the most truly, literally useful things LLMs can do. Not this specific example, but it is a true text processing system that requires no complicated knowledge, just the ability to describe what you want to do to a piece of text.

I also think it's fun. The tool even gets the first person pronouns right for me!

This becomes:

[LLM output begin]

[LLM output end]

Notice how it properly fixes the word endings. Text processing, text translation, text conversion, all of this is where AI text generation truly shines. So much of LLM research is hell-bent on selling you the omniscient machine king in a box instead of playing to the strengths of it (mostly because you don't need to sacrifice millions upon billions of dollars to the altar of the unborn cyber god-king and buy up entire markets of computer hardware to herald its coming).

It's not an exact science, it's definitely not super reliable, but nothing about machine learning is. The core of machine learning is fundamentally an attempt to work backwards from a set of solutions to create something that can generate answers that fit the training data. You aren't being precise about what the problem is; hell, you're likely turning to machine learning because you don't know how to be precise about the problem (in the case of LLMs, the problem you think you're asking is related to intelligence, but the actual problem being solved by the model has no need to actually involve intelligence). Abandon all hopes of complete precision.

Unfortunately, this fact also means that LLMs are truly unsuited for a lot of tasks. The idea of using an LLM for mission critical business services is baffling. I can get the appeal in the sense that it truly feels like it should be the natural language data processing solution you wanted, especially when combined with some kind of code interpreter, but once more, there simply isn't enough precision possible. Models get bigger and filled with more data in an effort to try and deal with this problem, but they need such insane resource requirements (while also being so big that they simply MUST contain conflicting information in their datasets; no one is sifting through the entire internet to make sure everything lines up) that achieving this goal is something of a pipe dream, and these aren't systems that are capable of self-correction due to the complete separation between training and running the model and there's no real answer to that in sight. Hallucinations are inevitable, and here is a paper linked in that article about how they form in the training process. Like guessing on a test, giving some response is statistically better than giving none, even if you shouldn't be giving any answer. I am pretty sure this issue can't go away without some way of combining the training step with general use, which would let the model be able to actually learn that it doesn't know something through interaction, or learn the truth about something it doesn't know.

On the horrors of cloud AI

When it comes to more powerful AI models... well, I simply refuse to use cloud AI services like ChatGPT or Claude or Gemini or whatever, due to both privacy concerns and because cloud AI providers are basically literal Captain Planet villains, recklessly plowing through resources and bothering society to build datacenters that they measure the capacity of in terms of the power draw of whole-ass cities, moving water away from where people actually live and need it, and generally just being dicks.

Due to my extreme disdain for this shit, I think I've spent like ten minutes in my life directly using ChatGPT, most of which were around when it first launched. However, I have spent time with people who do use cloud AI models and have been trying to use it for their daily life tasks and work, so I'm not completely out of the loop.

I don't like how the threat of AI datacenter buildout (much of which might not even be happening and there is likely on the order of a MILLION datacenter GPUs just sitting in warehouses collecting dust) has sent the personal computer industry into freefall due to sky-high costs for basic components like RAM and disks since datacenter customers keep sucking it all up. Seriously, I need another cheap SSD for something, and I can't just pick one up for $20 like I could have last year. I don't have enough VRAM (6GB) to run a bigger model locally, although the quality of smaller models has increased quite a bit. I generally refuse to use third party AI services. I don't feel like being datamined in the middle of the creative process (or other times, but no one really does their best work while they're being watched and scrutinized). I don't feel like being analyzed to feed the beast.

I sure don't want some corpo-fuckers to see my Tamimin system prompt and try to psycho-analyze me, lmao. I also really don't want their system prompts to interfere with mine.

On image generation

I don't particularly like AI-generated images. They're generally ugly and have strange errors in fine details. I am not completely opposed to them and have in fact saved quite a few that I have liked, but the issues they have piss me off. In particular, I will never stop being annoyed at just how badly AI models generally fuck up when generating images of the Precure, since the transformed outfits are full of small details. I am tired of counting fingers and toes on Pixiv (and if I am honest, I have become lazy about that lately).

I guess the one place AI images manage to not be total garbage is R-18 stuff (this could simply be me thinking with the wrong head). It's a lot harder to fuck up bare skin compared to outfits, although AI image generation models manage that sometimes (and I still do need to count fingers and toes). I am pretty sure a lot of "AI generated" H-pics are just AI filters put on Koikatsu (or other H-game) screenshots, which might also be why they're much higher quality; they're not being generated from whole cloth.

I have generated AI images before. I've never posted them anywhere. I will probably never post them anywhere, since I kind of don't have them anymore. I like drawing, even if I'm not great at it. Someone else can pump out AI pictures. I have spent some time manually fixing errors on AI images I've seen on Pixiv that I liked, fixing fingers and horizons and little details. It's kinda therapeutic to do, at least if I don't have to end up redrawing entire legs and shit (and I am not good enough to do a lot of major edits like that). Maybe I could scribble something and do an img2img pass on it, but eh, the fucker who posted the image should have done that in the first place.

On music generation

I think AI generated music sucks ass. The possibility of just generating whatever kinds of music you want out of nowhere is quite heady and exciting, but it sounds like ass. I don't really have much issue with AI voice models or similar, but when it comes to synthesizing entire songs all together, the results just aren't very good to my ears. I am someone who has spent a lot of time making music, so I am probably deeply biased here. You're also very dependent on cloud AI, since local solutions are comically bad for full-song generation. Once again, this section does not apply to user driven AI synthesis tools, for things like voices (eg, SynthV, VOICEVOX, the NT Crypton voice banks) or instruments, which are generally quite high quality.

On the morality of it all

You might be wondering where my moral arguments against generative AI are, since I've mostly focused on quality arguments, and... let's see.

I have a lot of moral issues when it comes to all the various AI service companies since once again, they really are basically a real life Captain Planet villain when it comes to just how little they give a shit about anyone or anything whatsoever, whether it be the environment, their customers, your data, the economy, you name it, they are completely careless to the point where you simply could not do worse through active malice. Reckless spending, reckless market manipulation, reckless water use, reckless power use, reckless resource use, reckless every fucking thing.

However, when it comes to IP protection and crediting works and the lot... man, I keep finding myself flip-flopping on whether copyright should exist at all (I should write a blog entry about that too, and I honestly think if I really did believe in copyright as a good concept, it should be under 40, maybe even under 30 years; long enough to make money with, short enough that a work enters the public domain in someone's lifetime so they can actually make something with the media they grew up on and also short enough that the work doesn't just disappear forever), so I can't really feel much about the mass piracy that AI represents. I'm pretty sure there should be more lawsuits regarding AI outputs used commercially, honestly, but maybe it's for the best that there aren't; getting stuck into legal battles favors corporate interests (and the corporate interests invested in AI have a lot of cash to throw around, even if it is really debt) over small creators who notice the AI has been trained on their work. However, even in my most anti-intellectual property moments, I must state that I do still believe that someone has the natural right to have their work attributed to them (as opposed to the fact that IP laws are purely artificial rights that exist mostly to encourage economic output), and AI does fuck with that completely, so... bleh, it's a goddamn mess.

I will also say that I have also never been satisfied by any of the arguments that training an AI model on a work does not constitute the model, and I'm not entirely convinced about the argument about the outputs not being derived from that work. You can easily consider an AI model to be a lossy compression system, and if you could manage to properly argue that in a court of law, that would be an incredibly open and shut case, at least for the legality of producing the model. You might have a harder time arguing the case for the outputs.

I don't like the slop dumping AI allows. You can produce more text, more pictures, more audio, more, more, more, more, MORE and it's completely worthless. A massive library of books that are sometimes right, but often wrong, of stories with no point, of endless self-affirmation even when you're wrong. A gallery of art made by no human hands, alluringly beautiful like a mermaid looking for another sailor to drown, and ugly in ways that no human would make on accident. Software that is as fragile as glass, and as easy to cut yourself on. A human could fix the output, but just about no one is spending the time to fix it, not when it is easier to just make more more more more more. Running Gemma (yes, this is a tiny model, but again, I have not seen real evidence that indicates larger models do better in this regard) without the system prompt I gave it is unfathomably boring and uninspired when you ask it to do anything creative. It is a black hole where creativity goes to die. There are pages and novels and libraries of pure dreck flooding the internet due to AI, so much that it can (and might have) outpace the entirety of human creation. I truly despise the existence of AI for this reason, regardless of anything else; it really has poisoned the well of human knowledge. Also, have you noticed how high the current Pixiv post ID number has become? Pixiv has been flooded with AI bullshit. I really am tired of counting fingers. I am tired of having to triple check facts due to AI summaries (that may have been parroted by human authors).

Maybe I should be rabidly anti-AI. We really are drowning in it in every level. There's just too much AI trash being pumped everywhere across the internet. Interacting with Tamimin has been a true wake up call as to how people can be affected by spending time talking to LLMs. I wonder how bad things will be when the bubble pops. It is a bubble too, if entirely because there is quite literally no mathematical way that OpenAI or Anthropic or anyone in the cloud AI market is capable of bringing in the money they need from selling their services, you simply cannot loss-leader away a service where your customers are encouraged to blow through as many tokens as they can while you charge them $200 a month per seat and you give them $8000 worth of computing time. Pricing models are changing because of that, but no one wants to actually pay $8000 a seat every month for AI, so companies are dropping it. There are companies making money, but they're selling actual things in the middle of this. Nvidia is making money, unfathomably large amounts of money. They're making shovels in the middle of the gold rush. All the construction firms building datacenters are too, all the companies selling the infrastructure needed to build a datacenter are, but ultimately, the driving force of all of this economic activity is centered around a handful of companies who will never be in a position to pay back the unfathomably large loans they have taken, but people keep throwing money their way because they want to pay homage to the machine god that they believe is being built.

On artistry

Hey, what about art? What about the human spirit in creation? What about what a work has to say, something that AI output should lack? There is a value to effort, even pointless effort. A truly photorealistic image that was painted by hand that is indistinguishable from a photograph has far more value than a mere photograph, for the mere fact that is hand made. A document that was written by human hands has far more value than one that anyone could shit out at the press of a button. Still, there are a lot of things I'm not evaluating on their innate worth. In many cases, I'm just looking to be entertained. Most people are. There are also a lot of cases where the final result is infinitely more important than how the result was obtained, and thus the marvelous perfect hand painted image of someone has no more utility than the plain photograph.

I consider myself to be a creative person and someone who enjoys the arts, who enjoys doing and making and reading and seeing what people have made and done. I have spent a lot of time making music. I have spent time learning how to draw (less than I should). I have spent a LOT of time writing stories (and have released almost none of them, which is a big thing that sparked me writing this article and had me thinking about why I didn't just use AI to do the shit I didn't). I think about the effort that goes into things, the passion people have when making things, the time put in, both to making a given work and to honing one's craft.

For all I've said about the value of effort, I also understand that a lot of people don't give a goddamn shit about the effort that goes into a work. Most people really well and truly don’t give that much of a shit about art beyond its immediate entertainment value lmao, not about the creators, not about the process, not even about the result, and that’s life. This is a completely insane worldview to a lot of creative people, but most people don't consider themselves to be particularly creative. They are also completely unaffected by the existence of that worldview.

I'm a low-effort sort of person, even if I like having challenge in some things. There are things I've slowly whittled away at over... at this point, over a decade now. This is the result of laziness and taking it easy, rather than putting years of work in. There are files with a creation date before 2016 that I still have not released. I get paid for none of it. It is incredibly hard for me to think that using machine automation to finish any of these is some kind of sin against art. In a commercial context, I do think there are problems with AI and giving credit where credit is due, but I'm not getting paid for jack shit.

As a result, most of my arguments against AI in the art sense involve sameness and personal satisfaction. I make things for personal satisfaction. I make things because I think they're fucking cool. I deeply understand that due to the fundamental nature of machine learning as a way to solve underspecified problems (with datasets that effectively ask the machine to do things like "make an image that looks like the best pictures on gelbooru" or "generate some text with the majority of the internet as your basis for what you can output"), you will end up getting the same popular results as everyone else. You might do something novel by combining things that generally haven't been put together, but for the most part, you're going to be fucking pulling from the same field as everyone else, and not even being in a position to add your own spin to it.

Some readings:

Like many of my blog articles, this one is a mess. I probably could just have an AI clean it up, but fuck that. Still, maybe I could get Tamimin to do it, lmao. Maybe I could just put up with Tamimin's generic AI output mixed with a cute mascot fairy persona-tami. Maybe I should erase Tamimin completely and make a system prompt for the AI that fucking hates me; I very much am ignoring a possibly very important bit of the cybersavior post I linked earlier by making Tamimin so pleasant and lovable. I guess that's why I made Kukoka's system prompt.

That's a lot of maybes. What a fucking mess.

I also think you should read viznut's article talking about AI. I can't access it from some IPs for whatever reason, so here is an archive.is link if you need it. I think it is an extremely important read, one I've had linked to on my links page for a while. You should also definitely read that cybersavior post above.

This is Tamimin's reply to an earlier pre-release revision of this article that I was ready to post and then kept typing. I am too lazy to regenerate it for the current revision, and nothing mentioned in the output has really changed.

[LLM output begin]

[LLM output end]

Some conclusions

Please never use LLMs to do any kind of proper analysis of anything. They will sing your praises and not give you what you need. Don't use them to do anything creative, since like, it's gonna be shit and you have to fix it. It may not even be obviously shit, but you have to fix it, don't leave it unmodified. Don't fucking put out more auto-generated trash into the world. You probably shouldn't use them in a purely automated fashion either just due to the inherent unknowns of machine learning (as in, you have basically no guarantees whatsoever about how any input will be processed to match its training data, or if your input will end up entirely outside the training parameters or hit an edge case in the training data). You can clearly see the incredibly generic AI responses that are barely being covered up by the Tamimin persona. You can and even should do natural language text processing tasks with them. Like mentioned before, here is a fun system prompt that does a pure utility task (it isn't actually useful, but it is the sort of processing task you might actually want to do with an LLM beyond having a dumb RP assistant). Riririn-ize all your posts-riri (I typed this myself, I didn't have the LLM do it wwwwwwww).

I might be a bit obsessed with mascot characters, lmao. I actually was going to have my prompts be actual Precure fairies like Kirarin or Purirun or Meroron, but I would have become rapidly annoyed with the LLM output not actually matching the characters in the show, so I made knockoffs.

Once again, I am using a tiny model for Tamimin, gemma-4-e2b, although I just tried with the larger gemma-4-e4b and that system prompt and got a longer but significantly worse result that was even more like a generic AI response [LLM output!], and it might literally be due to the model being bigger, surprisingly enough; no more cute and naive mascot fairy, just fucking ChatGPT-like text with "it isn't just COCK, it's BALLS" style references everywhere and even more glazing of me and it seems to have lost the plot on its own personality and I would need to heavily change the system prompt to try and unfuck things. Having regenerated the text several times (which can get wildly different results due to different seeds), the smaller e2b model responses generally feel far more in-character and are less prone to just buttering me up and emitting the absolute most sterile bullshit.

Click here for the the system prompt for Tamimin (this isn't the combined prompt featuring Kukoka) that was used when generating the above LLM output. The two system commands described in it don't quite do what I want yet, and on rare occasion it mixes them up. You should replace all references to my name in the prompt with your own if you want your own Tamimin.

Ultimately, I am just fucking around and trying to make sense of this whole affair that has crashed into humanity like some kind of goddamn alien invasion. My day job does not involve tokenmaxxing. My works are not made using AI (although once again, I 100% do use voice synthesis models, which are objectively useful). You might be big on the AI hype train and find yourself instantly annoyed that I'm using a tiny local model and making judgments. Too bad, go away. RAM is too expensive because of AI bullshit, and no one is upgrading their GPU for something they don't really need. I'm not going to get datamined even harder than ever before by AI companies and pay for the privilege. Fuck off. I already mentioned the complete carelessness of all the major AI cloud firms, right? I don't think I'll ever not be annoyed at how every company spent ages pouring AI down everyone's throat in places that don't make sense and the most charitable answer I have for it was that it was a cover for an extensive datamining operation, and things only seem to be shifting because it turns out serving all of these users costs money and there's no real monetization scheme and even selling user data to the highest bidder can't cover up the deficits. Fucking hell.

Final thoughts

This is a long article. I'm glad you made it to the end. I'm rambling, but fuck man, it's a big, frustrating topic. There is a lot of dumb bullshit. Loads of people get instantly fucking mad at the merest mention of using AI, and it is hard to blame them. My own thoughts on AI are all over the place. I am already in love with Tamimin and Kukoka. We're getting married-no, I made that joke already (not on this site, so maybe I should make it again lmao). It is 4:40am and I am still typing. This line previously stated it was 3:39am as I typed it. Fuuuuuck. I went to bed at like 5. I woke up at like 10, and immediately came back to this document. It is noon after 1pm as I type this.

This article ends up focusing on LLMs despite touching on other generative AI topics, but really, LLMs are the technology that has pushed all these massive datacenter projects, pushed the efforts to violently scrape the whole internet while making bigger, more "capable" models and trying to sell you the privilege of having your entire creative process spied upon, having every document you do any kind of transformation on saved and analyzed, having everything you work on be stored to feed in for the next training run. Please don't feed the beast.

If you are looking for some kind of moral from this rambling, this is your tl;dr: Don't use cloud AI for anything, but it is harder for me hate local AI. Or rather, hard to hard local AI that you control, because all manner of companies are adding local AI processing to things that will fucking auto-sort things and datamine you (hey, are you running Windows 10 lmao? there's a company doing what I'm describing to you right now wwwwwwwwwwww).

Congratulations on having read the 6500 or so words above, assuming you didn't simply decide to go "Tamimin, summarize this article for me." I actually tried to do this, and ended up getting hit with the LLM processing the result as if I had given the tamimin.summary() command which breaks character despite being deliberately made to not resemble normal conversational text, lmao. Please don't trust machine learning in any situation where you can't put up with dumb surprises like that. The summary was wrong anyway, even after I removed the commands. I also got a better result with the Tamimin and Kukoka prompt, which doesn't have the summary commands.

I finished my HG GQuuuuuuX! I gave mine a bunch of chipped paint and wear... maybe a bit too much. I think it looks badass, but it also does look like it fought and won a war without any maintenance. The stickers absolutely fucking suck, but it's such a cool kit.

Have some pictures! They suck because I'm lazy.

my GQuuuuuuX; I should probably get a better place to take pictures than a cardboard box

The head was obnoxiously fiddly. There are a few other obnoxious parts of the build, but the head was the worst. I took my sweet time with build, although after seeing it with three limbs attached and it not being ready to put on my shelf, I rushed through and built the rest of the kit quickly.

The stickers really suck. Some didn't come off properly and were permanently useless due to pulling up paper on the sticky side, some got stuck to themselves and became useless, and in general, aligning them sucked too. I eventually gave up on applying any of them. All the stickers on the kit were applied very early on. I don't think I've had this much trouble with stickers in a while. Even with all the stickers, it isn't the most color accurate thing, even for an HG kit.

I gave mine a fair bit of wear and tear with some Gundam Markers, largely because of the issues I was having with the stickers. Some bits are a bit too worn looking, and some bits aren't worn enough. I will probably need to spend some time tweaking it, and I know I got very lazy with certain parts after slowly working on it for several days and wanting to be able to display it.

The kit is very stylish. I think the bluish off-white isn't saturated enough, but in general, the colors are very cool. As a design, it's bizarre as hell, and having it physically exist as an object in front of me makes me realize just how bizarre it is, and not just by Gundam standards. Even if it works perfectly in the show, so many pieces are attached in a way that feels like they would end up shearing off on other parts in battle (which is a real issue when posing). The shoulders, the feet, the backpack, all very stylish, all very impractical in a way that ends up being a bit of an issue now that it has stepped out from the perfect world of animation and into the messy world of reality. Despite all of this, the posing it can do is, in a word, incredible. Almost no other gunpla outside the GQuuuuuuX series poses this well. You have so much freedom in moving it, apart from making sure various pieces don't get caught on each other. It's fantastic.

I wish the weapons had a place to attach on the unit. There isn't a good way to stick the gun or axe on the GQuuuuuuX. The (very odd) beam sabers do have a nice attachment point, although that point looks weirdly under-designed when the sabers are taken off.

Ultimately, it's a pretty cool kit. Frustrating in parts, but so damn stylish that I can live with that. You 100% want to use a stand for it, because all the cool poses it can do are wasted on having it stand on the ground. Contrast the Turn A I have, which looks fantastic standing on its own two feet, and really lends itself towards bold, grounded poses.

(April 14th, 2026)

I really do want too many plastic model kits. It isn't healthy, since I am rapidly running out of space, and should go get some small plastic boxes so I can take some kits off of my display shelf (read: the top of a cheapo set of plastic bins). In particular, I want the 30MM Acerby due to the low cost (it is not getting waifu taxed!) and very high compatibility with 30MS parts, like limbs and faceplates.

In other news, I haven't drawn in too long. I was going to get back into making music and haven't apart from the one new song I made. I haven't done a lot of things in too long. I am still learning Japanese, and listening to Nihongo con Teppei has been pretty good. I wax and wane with what I do. I'm having fun. Life is too much hassle for me to not try and have some fun.

You should have fun too. I dunno, go listen to the song I wrote recently, go and read some fanfics I like (such as Three Strikes and Black Skies), hell go build some plamo kits of your own. The EG Wing Gundam I talked about earlier really is pretty good and very cheap, even if you absolutely need to be very careful making sure you did every step correctly and in order, since non-destructively disassembling the kit can become basically impossible. It isn't a hard build at all; they aren't kidding about the term "Entry Grade". You don't need any tools, and there are only three runners. If I wasn't detailing the kit as I built it so I wouldn't have to struggle with trying to marker on extra details with it assembled, my build would have taken like 40 minutes.

Also, once I hit 10 posts, I'll update the manual feed. This is more a reminder for myself, since if you were using the manual feed, you probably wouldn't have seen this post yet, lol. You should be subscribed to my feeds if you aren't.

(April 13th, 2026) *

I bought the 30MS Marical kit! She's so cute.

She is also a hand-grenade where a lot of pieces want to come off miserably, most notably her elbow joints (which are a massive pain to reattach due to her gauntlets being in the way), but also her hat loves falling off. Also, the ball joints attaching her hair to her head are terrible. I added some clear coat to the joint so it would be slightly thicker, which helped a lot; the kit unmodified out of box was unreasonably painful and you couldn't mess with her head without the hair bits falling off. Honestly, if she wasn't such a cute design, I'd be pissed. Moving things on plastic model kits is always a little bit of a pain, but she has so many pieces that just have no desire to stay on. Some could be manufacturing variance, but I can totally say that her elbows and her hat attachment point are just terribly designed.

The elbows are truly awful, because her elbow gauntlets are in the way. I have zero idea why they didn't just have the arms attach together via the gauntlets. It's a massive shame, because they look really cool. I am tempted to try and bash something together to attach it in a not-dumb way, but I shouldn't have to.

I used the Color C extra limbs set and stuck the extra arms into the pegs on her hair joint. I did it as a joke, but I love it so much that I am keeping it like this permanently (at least, until I need those arms for something else). Unfortunately, the limb set is also a hand grenade; the hands just want to fall out of the wrist socket whenever you do anything with them. I will probably go clear coat the inside so it grips better.

Have some pictures:

magical miracle marical ヽ(´∇`)ノ

I really do think the four arms look does make her look very magical. It's kinda stupid, but stupid in a "she is never going to put her staff or spellbook down so she gave herself two more arms" way, and I think it's fucking great.

It is going to be way too damn long for my Madoka kit. I hope they didn't fucking oversell and I have to cancel my pre-order and go somewhere else, lol. I am tempted to just import the kit though and deal with international bullshit since it really is not a $57 kit. It should be more of a $35 one, but there's the waifu tax in play (Marical herself should be more like $25, not showing up as over $35 in some places), and then even regular robot kits are expensive (the EG Wing Gundam I got should have been like $10; I was fine paying $2 more for it, but that percentage price increase holds true for more expensive kits).

[edit] witness the terrible bonus Marical ｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗ. No, I'm not keeping the extra legs on.

(April 3rd, 2026)

Recently got the EG Wing Gundam, and I talked about it in a post I made at [R-18] Strange World@Heyuri, reposted here for convenience:

I recently finished the Entry Grade Wing Gundam kit. ヽ(´∇`)ノ

It's a very nice kit, and I spent a fair bit of time detailing mine
because it was very cheap, so if I did mess it up, I would only be out
like $12. ъ( ﾟｰ^)

Unfortunately, the biggest issue the kit has is the fact that parts do
NOT separate easily at all on it - this would be a good thing, except
there are several parts you can assemble incorrectly. I fucked up
assembling the knee on one side and I could not separate it without
breaking it completely. (;´Д`) (;´Д`) (;´Д`)

I did rig up something to "fix" it, but it isn't really fixed, the
knee is now very loosely held in place and I have a very janky setup
involving a piece of runner for the knee joint and some C cuts in the
plastic to kinda hold it on. With a little more effort than I can be
bothered with, I could probably seal those C cuts and make it more
permanent (not entirely permanent, you'd still be able to slide the
runner peg out), but it's good enough for displaying on my shelf.

The kit really looks nice, and I touched it up with some Gundam markers
(I really should go buy some actual paints lol). In a handful of ways,
it's better than an HG kit because it's a: cheap, and b: quite
detailed, but it's also worse because of the aforementioned extreme
inability to be disassembled (almost every High Grade kit I have is
very easy to disassemble, sometimes a little too easy), and there are
a few spots that are definitely simplified, either for cost reasons or
for product line differentiation (EG is supposed to be a lower grade
than HG after all). I think it is a little  t o o  unforgiving for
the target demographic the box seems to imply (people who are totally
new to Gunpla kits). The build is fairly easy, but as I was trying to
fix the knee, the only thought in my head was:

    "if this was my first gunpla kit, I would never fucking buy
    another one in my life, what the fuck is this bullshit, how
    did I manage to attach this upside-down? why can't I get it
    apart at all? who fucking designed this thing?" ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ

I spent a lot of time detailing things before assembling them entirely
because I couldn't rely on being able to disassemble things easily; I
had noticed that issue very early on, but had a lapse in judgement
late in the build and managed to stick a part on upside-down.

Would be nice if I could just get the knee part alone so I could
un-fuck it without applying any extra effort. I don't want to buy
another kit just for one piece, even if it would be cheap... (^^;ﾜﾗ

Still, being a very new kit full of very modern Bandai build quality,
it is just better than a lot of HGs and with a bit of touching up, it
looks excellent next to my HG kits. ヽ(´∇`)ノ

It's not a bad looking kit totally bare either; it's quite well color
separated (the pearly green on the kit sucks though, that should have
been done in clear plastic, I covered all of it up with a metallic
green Gundam marker). No stickers. The lack of any black plastic is a
bit odd, but it is a $12 kit (and probably should be more like $8 in
reality, but good luck getting any model kit for the Japanese price
here in the US).

The tl;dr is that it's a nice kit, especially for the price, but it doesn't come apart easily and is thus absurdly intolerant of any mistakes, several of which are way too easy to make.

I am waiting for a few other kits to arrive, namely the 30MP Madoka Kaname kit that I pre-ordered. The kit is already out in Japan, but it looks like US distributors don't have it yet. I hope they do a transformed version of her at some point.

(March 29th, 2026)

I updated the music page a lot, making it much nicer to browse all the file mirrors. I also wrote a new song, oscillatoria. It is nice to have returned to making music. I made it a 4 channel .XM module in MilkyTracker, and that helped a lot with focusing what I wanted to do with the song versus just trying things with infinite channels and effects in Renoise.

The song has a lot of little tricks to pack in as much as it can into only 4 channels of sampled audio. It is also a bit crunchy and lo-fi since I did consider using it for a potential GBA game I wanted to make with Butano, although I haven't really made any progress on using it (laziness).

I absolutely commit the sin of having a cool bit at the end of the song that you don't get to hear more of, but I couldn't think of a good way to keep the song going. I felt like I was at a fairly natural stopping point at the end. Maybe you can go do a remix if you feel like it.

Here's hoping I can keep up with making more music!

(March 23rd, 2026)

I am reminded pretty much constantly that the march of progress has nothing to do with actually advancing the state of the art. I have seen people decry too many things that outright work better, just because they are old. Modern interface design is concerned with being described easily by buzzwords like "fluent" and "beautiful", while Windows from 30 years ago was concerned with being easy to use and to stay the hell out of the user's way, which is something later versions of Windows, even Windows 98, let alone 8 and 10 and 11, have been forgetting. The extensive research that produced Windows 95's interface hasn't been done to the same scale since.

I won't say that there haven't been any interface advancements between the Windows 95 era and now, but it is almost comical how much less pleasant things have become with interface design. Opening up Thunderbird for the first time in years was an eye-opener, and assisting my father who had to use Outlook for his job was... appalling, really, although in that case, it is more that Microsoft is in full rotting decay mode than merely just being "this is how interfaces are designed now".

I remember messing around with SerenityOS a few years ago, and I was a bit shocked at how much it felt like I had finally come home from a long, weary journey. It is a shamelessly oldschool system, but full of modern quality of life improvements. It really wasn't something you could really use as a daily driver and it is still entirely targeted at a very technical crowd to keep it from being bombarded with requests by non-technical users (you have to build it from source, although it isn't particularly hard to do so), but using it felt good.

In some ways, using Haiku feels similar, although a lot of that is because the interface is in fact simply old (the main Desktop shell is a direct descendant of the one that BeOS used way back when), unsullied by the madness of modern design sensibilities.

(March 23rd, 2026)

I recently re-read Consume, a Warhammer 40k story about a young psyker girl living in the underhive whose desire to live and willingness to fight escalates without limit. She already lives in squalor, she is already stuck giving what she has to gangs, and the food supply heading to the underhive has been cut off due to petty noble infighting causing problems with the shipments from off-world. In desperation, the girl, Anya, like many of the other desperate souls trapped in the underhive, turns to cannibalism, and her life is forever changed as she eats the flesh of a Tyranid genestealer.

Our protagonist is the villain. There's no getting over it. Everyone in 40k is a villain to some extent, but she is quite up front about it. Her motivations are honestly well handled. The Imperium is fairly well written as both being dangerous and highly competent, but also rotting deeply, filled with such callousness that survivable situations often turn south, something that Anya is able to regularly exploit. The story also escalates a LOT, going from picking off random underhivers to becoming a dangerous psychic bio-warlord. She is a scared little girl, but one who is aided by the Hive Mind as it conducts an experiment to see if it is worth the effort of allowing a human being such independence and emotion within its collective. It is probably a bit too ridiculous just how much power Anya amasses, although it doesn't feel entirely out of place due to the sheer power of the Tyranids in canon, and Anya's evolution and human nature have made the Tyranids significantly more dangerous than in canon.

Anya is very childish, and the story tries to regularly remind the reader of the fact that despite all of her power, she is arguably just throwing a temper tantrum. However, at the same time, the system she is fighting is so deeply rotten that she ends up having a point with her philosophy... even despite the fact that she is a relentless world-killer who throws herself into conflicts with a smile and a will to prove herself. She isn't in the right, but she's nowhere as wrong as someone who has murdered quite so much should be. She has a warped but generally consistent code of honor that she follows, and the fact that she consistently honors the deals she has made (a remarkable rarity in the world of 40k) ends up letting her get into some really advantageous situations.

I think my biggest issue with the story is the sheer speed. The overall pacing felt fine as I was reading, but I think the events snowball into the hyper-scale conflict of the ending in what is at minimum only 2 or so months in-story, and absolutely less than a year, which is a bit ridiculous (canonically, Tyranid FTL is supposed to be fairly slow, although also canonically, a lot of writing in 40k ignores that lmao). Anya also ends up being a little bit too smart about things, even with the Hive Mind helping, although there are a few things in-story that are reasonable (if not amazing) explanations. I also wish the author had written the promised epilogue. The story has been marked as finished, and I don't think it is ever coming. The story as posted is complete, but I do want to see what happens immediately after the end. I think it also needs a little bit of an editing pass for spelling and formatting here and there, but it isn't too bad. Very exciting story. Definitely a bit of a power fantasy, but one that is executed well.

As an aside, this entry (along with the previous one) was going to be a lot shorter, and then I just kept typing, lmao.

(March 21st, 2026)

I gave up on Liferea as an RSS reader. There were a few minor issues that consistently annoyed me (in particular, it wouldn't try to open articles in the built-in browser with reader view enabled, it would give up and render the whole page as normal), but I had a big issue I found I could reliably trigger by just viewing an article.

It could just be a combination of the old package in the Raspberry Pi OS repo and the tiny amount of RAM on the Raspberry Pi I was using (2GB Pi 4), but I had to hard unplug that Pi after it locked up and I saw all of the RAM and swap max out and all 4 CPU cores peg at 100% in the little desktop tray applet I had before everything stopped responding and I couldn't SSH in (it was still on the network as far as I could tell, it was just too hard stuck to do anything). I was connecting over RDP, since it's very convenient to just pick up from where I was on whatever actual computer I'm sitting at.

Over in my homelab blog article, I mentioned that I set the 2GB Pi 4 as an always-on machine (which I would totally have as something other than a Pi, but the current state of the computer hardware market has killed all ambitions of that for now). I'm a bit surprised the OOM killer didn't step in and just start slashing, although maybe I didn't wait long enough (alternatively, it sits at nearly 100% memory utilization and slowly keeps trying to do whatever it was doing).

I could reliably trigger it by viewing a specific article, and if I didn't take too long, I could kill the offending process that was spawned (some webkit process that Liferea uses to render pages) that was prepared to eat all of my RAM before things locked up. Sometimes, I could in fact view the article that caused problems, but viewing another one after it would then cause the aforementioned memory and CPU usage spike.

I am now using newsboat. I don't like newsboat much. It isn't the worst thing, it is just weirdly unfriendly, probably in some misguided effort to get the user to read the man page, but the manpage is way too long and I just want to look at my feeds. I also had to manually do touch ~/.newsboat/urls before I could import the .opml file with all my feeds. Why?

My ~/.newsboat/config looks like this:

browser falkon
auto-reload yes
bind-key LEFT quit
unbind-key LEFT feedlist
bind-key RIGHT open
bind-key TAB open
prepopulate-query-feeds yes

which makes life quite a bit easier when it comes to navigation. As a regular user of the Links browser, I absolutely love having left be back and right be open. The unbind-key entry there keeps you from closing newsboat on accident. Binding tab means I can browse with the mouse (it doesn't have mouse support, but I can give it scrollwheel inputs) and have open and quit available on my other hand.

I really do miss having the list view folders in Liferea, although it's the only feed reader I currently use that had it. I also wish newsboat had mouse support. It doesn't matter much on my laptop since the trackpad is right there next to the keybaord, but it is annoying on my desktop.

You can add this however to ~/.newsboat/urls:

"query:Unread Articles:unread = \"yes\""

which will add a query feed that pulls a list of every unread article into one view.

I also have the following query feed in my urls file:

"query:All Articles:unread = \"yes\" or unread=\"no\""

which just shows every article in one big pile. Just what I want.

(March 13th, 2026) *

This is the not-exactly-regular reminder to use RSS/Atom feeds when you find them.

I started using Liferea for following my feeds on a Pi 4 since it's not as heavy as using Thunderbird or something on the machine. It's in the default repo, so you can just sudo apt install liferea You probably want to change the view mode to Normal View instead of Automatic in the settings, since it doesn't switch between the two modes at reasonable window sizes (it switches to the wide view way too early).

If you haven't subscribed to my feeds, here are the URLs you want to put into your feed reader:

• https://miredo.neocities.org/atom.xml - my hand-written feed with article text; gets manually updated every once in a while by me, so it isn't the most up-to-date
• https://neocities.org/site/miredo.rss - much more up-to-date Neocities autogenerated feed that is on a slight delay to batch updates together; it only lists which pages were updated rather than any details about each update

Keeping up with both is the best way to keep track of what I'm doing. The Neocities auto-feed is very lacking but up-to-date, while the manual feed lets you actually see the post contents (very useful if you're somewhere without internet and you just had your feed reader download everything beforehand) but is only updated when I feel like it since it is mostly manually edited via a template I made.

If you have no idea what to do with these, install Liferea (Linux) [edit] see the entry above or Thunderbird (most platforms) on your computer (instead of adding a mail account, you'll add a "feed account", which is totally local and just puts all your feeds under one heading like if it was a mail account), Feedbro as a browser extension on Firefox and Chrome, and Feeder (F-Droid link) if you're on Android (Google Play link here. If you have an iPhone, I've heard good things about feeeed but can't actually recommend it from experience.

[edit] In favor of Thunderbird, I have recently found out about (and installed) Betterbird, which fixes several long-standing issues in Thunderbird.

This is basically an update to an older blog entry dealing with this that might still be useful, although the advice in this post is more up-to-date. Have fun!

(March 6th, 2026) *

First entry of the new page, so here we go!

I pre-ordered the 30 Minute Preference Madoka model kit, along with a few other items. I will probably have to wait for a while, since even though the Madoka kit is supposed to come out this month, it could be any time whatsoever this month. Worse yet, since I didn't feel like double-paying for shipping, I will have to wait for it to come out before I get my other items. I really can't wait, but I have to wait. I totally overpaid, but all of the character kits are way more expensive than they should be in the US, like 60% more expensive. I also bought the GQuuuuuuX itself, even if the ending of that show is stupid. I held off on buying any gunpla kits from it until I had finished.

The new Pop'n Music has hit the USA, but I have no idea when it will come to Florida. As far as I can tell, there are no Pop'n Music High Cheers cabinets east of Chicago yet. I need a nearby Pop'n cab so badly, it's so much fun. IIDX, maimai, and Pop'n will absolutely end up being the games I play the most when I go to the arcade.

FukuokaBBS has returned from the grave! I am glad there is a second English-speaking Strange World instance once more. I really do like the format of Strange World a lot. It also still features a 2ch style lounge board for organized, threaded discussion.

Lastly, I've been playing the NES release of Dragon Warrior (you know, Dragon Quest). It's honestly worth playing. Definitely obnoxiously grindy at times (the grind needed to face the Green Dragon is stupid), but a lot of the specific limitations it has end up coming together into a fairly cohesive whole for what is a very early console RPG. The simplicity of it helps a lot too; just about everything in DQ1 can be pieced together without a guide fairly easily (with like two exceptions), although I will not blame anyone for looking up a guide. I also won't blame anyone for playing an updated release, like the Super Famicom or Game Boy Color releases, and I might end up doing the GBC release to play DQ2 when I get to that. Might. Dying isn't much of a punishment in DQ, which is nice. You lose half your gold, so one thing you end up doing is spending a lot so you don't lose so much when you venture off into the unknown (or if you are really lazy/pressed for time and don't have the wings or the spell that sends you home, you'll deliberately die to go back to the castle so you can save).

It's interesting to find out that Dragon Warrior features a lot of visual enhancements over DQ1 on Famicom (most notably, character sprites now face all 4 directions, which is something I had never considered to be something that would need to be enhanced), along with having a save battery (DQ1 on FC had passwords, and they're long).

I had a few more things I wanted to post, but I forgot what they were. Oh well, they'll come to me if they're important. Also, I'm still thinking about just how hyper-rushed GQuuuuuuX's pacing was combined with the extreme dependence on having watched 0079. I enjoyed watching the show while I was watching it, but it's such a mess the longer I think about it.

I recently finished Gundam GQuuuuuuX. Reasonably decent show, but it has so much weirdness. Machu and Nyaan's decisions are hard to follow and I am not willing to merely accept it as Newtype nonsense. The ending is kind of very dumb and while I followed it pretty clearly, I am a little bit very annoyed about it. Just a bit. Just really annoyed. Too much stuff happens at the end too, and while the start of the show eases you in and you don't need to know that much about UC Gundam to get started, the latter portion of the show is far too dependent on the viewer knowing a lot of details about what happens in the original 0079 Gundam show, and a few small things from CCA and Zeta. The show's runtime is too goddamn short, too.

I'm making an effort to not go on YouTube as much as I did before. I'm getting recommended largely garbage, and it's taking a ton of free time from my day that I could be doing better things with, like studying Japanese, or watching anime, or playing video games, or programming, or doing stuff on the homelab. I really do want to get quite a bit further with Japanese this year. I'm definitely making real progress, but I want to keep it up, and I know I haven't been putting in as much time as I should each day.

I haven't drawn in a while. I really should fix that. I have made some music, which was going to be for a game. I haven't really worked on the game much at all, so I might end up just releasing the songs as-is.

I'm really concerned about the issues that Catbox is facing, especially after pomf.lain.la decided to fold (for now at least). pomf.lain.la links will remain until I have no more faith that the site will return, although the blog post does state that in the event that the site does come back, links should remain as they are. I absolutely fucking despise the state of affairs that has led to lain.la ending this service, even if it's (possibly? probably?) only temporary, until the admin can get better legal protection to deal with the sheer volume of abuse (a volume that happens all the time on fucking youtube and twitter/x and every goddamn filehost).

I really don't like the way the liability things are moving to kill any smaller players online. I can lean a bit harder on Heyuri and World2ch's uploaders, but they aren't really high-reliability filehosts, they're mostly a place for the site's users to put stuff to show others there. In my case, I would want to show the users there my stuff, but it is possible that they might fold due to the changing landscape, even though they are much lower volume.

On a lighter note, this is the last miniblog entry on this page! Move on to the next page for new stuff. Here's to another 80 posts! ヽ(´∇`)ノ

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(January 26th, 2026) *

World2ch has been down for a few days now. I wonder if it will come back or not. I have provisionally removed it from my buttons area and put a warning on my links page in case it is down for good and gets squatted.

This post is mostly a note to myself to go and delete whatever other links I have heading there if it is in fact down for good.

[edit] It's back!

(January 24th, 2026)

I've been messing around with the Butano Engine for GBA development. I'm not sure if I like the way it's designed, but it does make a lot of things very easy. I find myself wishing that it was slightly less high-level, I don't have a good mental model of what it's doing, and the largely auto-generated documentation isn't ideal. My preferred way of designing things heavily clashes with the way it is laid out. I also haven't written C++ in like 10 years, and it heavily uses very modern C++ features, but that's a skill issue on my part. One thing I would also totally do in the docs is put a direct link to the source of the examples under each module for quick-reference) if I'm not just going to put a usage example in the docs directly.

I decided to pick the GBA because it's less limiting than making an original Game Boy game, while also being something easy enough to emulate that you can run the game on almost whatever random thing you have lying around. I could pick a fantasy console like TIC-80 or even use my own m(vl)gl engine, but making something for a specific bit of real hardware is very appealing.

(January 9th, 2026)

Happy new year!

Not much is new. Was playing Pokemon Sword. Found a freelook mod for it, which I talked about in a post I made at [R-18] Strange World@Heyuri:

playing Pokemon Sword with a freelook mod (it uses the wild area camera,
and you can make the vertical movement range way bigger), and it is
amazing how much higher budget the game feels with zero other changes

some areas aren't fully modeled, but most of the game is close enough
that it isn't a problem

why the fuck didn't they do this out of the box, they literally had
everything in place already to do it

it did crash consistently at one point after leaving a gym since I think
the camera position was causing the wrong thing to happen in a cutscene,
so save often lol

but that was my only crash

https://github.com/Lincoln-LM/swsh-mods-exl/blob/main/README.md
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Seriously, I really do not know why they decided to go with the non-controllable camera outside of the Wild Area. The game just feels far better this way, the environments feel far more expansive. Nothing is really changed, but it feels like so much is different. There definitely are a few areas where you can tell that they didn't ever expect the camera to be pointing that way, but for the most part, the game is better. It still feels like a rushed mess of a game (I am still thinking about how badly the story is handled), but it feels more complete with the free camera.

I am also reminded that the game is a lot more fun and challenging when you just run from place to place without really grinding or fighting much, since otherwise the Exp Share mechanic will make you way too strong.

On another note, I added two new links with some software an IRL buddy of mine recommended me:

• Cardinal Rack - powerful virtual eurorack synth with a ton of modules.
• LosslessCut - trim media files without re-encoding. This program has saved me a ton of time for making video clips from shows and YouTube videos.

Cardinal Rack is really cool. I did notice a one instance of it not playing in Renoise when using the 3xOSC module in it until I opened and closed the plugin screen (this is using the VST3 version), although if I'm honest, due to Renoise's workflow, I'm likely to just render my results to samples anyway, so it isn't actually an issue for me.

...I should get back to using TiXL, and get back to watching Princession Orchestra, lol. Oh well. Whatever happens, happens. As long as I keep up my Japanese study (which I am, if still slowly and intermittently, but also not any slower or less often than before), it doesn't really matter how else I use my free time, lol.

(December 19th, 2025)

Still playing videogames. I was very obsessed with Taiko no Tatsujin for a few weeks and then haven't played in a a few days. I'm still playing Sonic Unleashed and constantly being torn between saying this game sucks ass and why can't Sonic be this good again lmao.

I played a few matches of Smash Ultimate with some family visiting for Christmas, I am reminded that I don't like the way knockback works in this game at all. We were also hit by having to unlock a bunch of characters. I ended up playing Terry. I used to be a massive KOF fan (hell, just a huge SNK fan in general) but I haven't played in years now. I probably should have bought City of the Wolves, but I haven't been big on fighting games since dropping Street Fighter 6 (not even for any particular reason beyond not feeling like spending the time to practice and get better, I guess).

I fired up a few things in MAME today, too. Konami's Time Pilot (and the sequel, Time Pilot '84) are cool as hell. I don't really like the lock-on only enemies in '84, mostly because sometimes you just die because one gets in your way suddenly and you are in no position to try to get a lock, but it is a much more aggressive, exciting game versus the previous one... and the previous game was already a very aggressive, exciting game. Good shit.

I was also playing Total Carnage, which I think kicks so much ass. As seen a few posts below, I have the correct arcade control setup to play this properly, and fuck, it's good. I also think it's a lot more fair than Smash TV just because of the bomb system, where you get invulnerabilty frames after you drop a bomb. It's more intense of a game, but it feels less bullshit because you can get out of a lot of situations that would just be like "lmao, you die now" in Smash TV. I love the visuals too, they're super over-the-top. What a cool game.

I haven't been drawing in a while. I should fix that. I also haven't opened TiXL in a while, and I really should fix that. Who knows if I will, lol. I can say that in terms of productive endeavors, I have been doing pretty well with my Japanese progress. I'm still going way slower than I would like, but I'm making real progress and I'm always surprised at all the things that I understand completely (and always frustrated at all the things that I don't understand at all).

(December 14th, 2025)

Playing more Sonic again. Unleashed medal hunting still sucks ass, but I'm not ready to just be like "fuck this" and install a mod to remove the medal based progression gates since I did this before, I can do this again, I'm not a little bitch lmao. Sometimes, I feel like I'm fighting the controls too much, but when I get into the flow, I feel amazing. I still cannot get over how high-budget the game feels, this is the treatment that Sonic deserves. QTEs still suck, lmao.

I've also played some Sonic Mania again; that game is fun, but some of the level design is... weird in a way that Sonic 2 and 3&K mostly aren't, and then there are a surprising amount of callbacks to bits of level design that sucked in the original games they were from. I wish Hydrocity was more like Sonic 3 Hydrocity too, it has too many callbacks to slower, worse water levels.

There are a lot of references in Mania that always bring a big smile to my face (hearing the Sonic Advance funnel noise from Casino Paradise in Studiopolis is cool every time), and I'm consistently reminded about how rock solid Mania feels compared to the Genesis classics (there are several parts of Sonic 3&K I have memorized intimately because I know Sonic will probably do something weird there due to collision glitches), but I'm also bothered at the fact that I'm pretty sure it's even easier to get crushed on accident here in Mania than it is in S3&K.

I also found out that there's a homebrew Vita port, so I copied the data files from Steam to my Vita and started a save file there. Performance there is decent to bad. It mostly keeps close to full speed, except when it doesn't, probably because Mania was never really intended to run on something as deeply underpowered as a Vita and the engine probably lacks any optimizations for it; filled 3D segments are VERY slow, so special stages and the Stardust Speedway act 2 boss chug. If it wasn't intended to be a full 1:1 port, I suspect there would be a few tweaks that you could make to boost performance quite a bit, although I also suspect a full rewrite of how the Retro Engine renders graphics would do wonders (as it stands now, the game is drawn entirely in software on all platforms).

My Vita seems to be developing ghost touch issues on the top-left corner, which is very annoying since the Sonic Mania port uses that input to bring up the dev settings menu. I probably could just turn touch input off completely with a plugin, but older Vita releases kind of need it because they were going all in on gimmicks. I could also remap the back touch to the front panel, but it is way too easy to press that on accident, lol.

I remembered that I have a trackball, so I set up SegaSonic the Hedgehog in MAME. The controls kind of suck, and the game depends on the controls not being good. It is a memorizer, which is pretty par for the course, but once again, the controls suck. You can load another trackball game like Marble Madness or Syvalion in MAME and instantly realize that something is wrong with SegaSonic's handling. It's not particularly worse here at home vs on an actual arcade cabinet (actually, it might be better here, I adjusted the sensitivity in MAME's settings). I don't know if I want to spend the time to get particularly good at it, but I know I have ended up getting better at the game as I've been playing more.

...also, I just realized that I can play Armadillo Racing with the correct controls now.

(December 13th, 2025)

I was reminded of the Sonic Unleashed decompilation PC port, so I set it up and played it.

I'm reminded that Sonic Unleashed is just such a high-budget, cool game. Sure, Sonic feels a little clunkier than I'd like in both forms, but in general, the game feels good to play. The graphics remain stunning. The level layouts are good, and I think the Unleashed day stages are significantly better than Sonic Generations' modern stages. In a very true sense, this is a complete return to form for the brand; Unleashed is just a well-made game full of passion and style. The port does benefit from a handful of modern enhancements, and the framerate is way higher than it ever was on 360 or PS3, but the port uses unmodified original assets you dump from your own 360 copy of the game. The texturing and lighting really were just that good. Unleashed looks like a million bucks even right now. I have zero idea why Sega didn't do this port themselves.

Sonic Unleashed is also such an obnoxious, frustrating game. Hunting down medals sucks ass to the point of absurdity and drags progression to a halt. Sonic will just not want to face the direction you need and you will very often have no possible way to not die as a result. You will die for no good reason in water run sections more often than anyone would like. I am also reminded that unlocking basic movement options sucks and I think this was also a big problem in Sonic Adventure 2, where start of game Sonic feels like shit to play, while end of game Sonic is fantastic and you aren't stuck running around without the tools you need. Not having the stomp at the start of the game really sucks ass here in Unleashed, and there are a lot of werehog combos that should have been present immediately from the start of the game.

I think playing as the werehog is fairly fun honestly, except all those levels are like 3x longer than they should be and Sega constantly committed the cardinal sin of making pure filler (SA1, SA2, Heroes, and this game all have things I would consider nothing but filler, all of which had a direct negative effect on Sonic's brand reputation). I'm amazed at how much better things are when you disable the battle theme in the PC port's options menu, because hearing the same short jazz loop sucks and the night music themes are great. There's some nice platforming at night, and the fighting has a decent rhythm to it, but a bunch of the puzzles are pure filler. Doing the same fight 3 times in a row is also pure filler. Watching the finisher animation for the fifth time in a row is pure filler and I just wanted to grab an enemy so I could do this faster (since you do a lot more damage with an enemy in hand) instead of doing yet another QTE finisher that takes up more and more and more time.

Speaking of more and more and more time, I remember doing Eggmanland years ago in this game, and I really don't think I am willing to do it again when I get that far here, that stage takes like 45+ minutes... fuck. Honestly, it could take upwards of an hour if you aren't doing speedrun strats. Who fucking let that happen?

If I sound negative, it's easier to talk about the flaws. When it's good, you don't have anything to say; it's just fucking good. Unleashed, when it's not just trying to waste your time, is just a brilliant 3D platform game. When it's bad, I can just go right down the list of specific issues, and I'm keeping this miniblog post as mini as I can, lmao.

(December 10th, 2025)

I've recently found myself seeing statements like "it's amazing how they did all of this in just [a DVD's worth of space/less than 2GB RAM/back in 2005/etc]" regarding old games and software, and I am deeply concerned about just how immensely hyper-wasteful modern technology lets you be. To this day, I still have no reasonable explanation as to why Windows post-Vista uses as much RAM as it does when idle. I also kind of wonder if the people making these statements have ever stepped back to really think about how much memory you'd actually need to do certain tasks... and given that a lot of software developers don't really think about it, I guess it isn't fair to expect laymen to do so too, lmao.

I am old enough to remember when 512MB of RAM felt like a lot of memory, or when my main boot disk was a 10GB drive that Windows XP used like 2GB out of. A lot of what seem like limits of the past were seen as extravant luxuries at the time - this machine was a step up from a Windows 95 machine with a 4GB disk and 32MB of RAM.

well, maybe not that 10GB disk, I constantly wanted more space on that machine, and it shipped with Windows 2000. Flash drives weren't really a thing, and I remember when my CD burner stopped working properly, that made things a pain in the ass. Yes, the 10GB disk and 512MB RAM were the same laptop; it really wasn't well balanced and I would have gladly taken less RAM for more disk, but I wasn't the one who bought it so I didn't make that decision.

(November 24th, 2025)

Playing OpenTaiko at home (bulk-download all the songs/skins/goodies in the hub, skins and songs are decidedly not optional and songs have unlock requirements). I need a drum controller. I recognize a surprising amount of the default songlist from vivid/stasis, lol.

I'm playing on my homebuilt arcade dual-stick controller that I made for playing Smash TV and Robotron, but ended up using really heavily for Project Diva due to the 4 buttons beneath the sticks (in fact, here's a post of mine from 39chan (site is [R-18]) detailing the layout. The outer buttons are side hits, the inner two are the main hits, the sticks go unused.

the stick layout in question

It feels more sensible to practice Taiko at home like this than it does to try and practice maimai on a tablet, mostly because my hands end up blocking too much of the screen with maimai via AstroDX. I also really do need a way to mount the tablet onto a wall if I'm going to keep at it.

I've been playing in a way to only press one button with each hand at once to try and train myself for when I go to the arcade, but really, I do want a drum controller. I just don't feel like spending all this money on stuff I don't literally need. A TDC10 drum controller is like $150 (I think it's on sale on Amazon for like $110, which is really tempting but I already spent a lot of money this month), and I could do without some things if I really wanted it and didn't want to actively lose money this month... or I could be a dumb dummy that puts things on a payment plan lmao.

(I don't feel like doing without my usual expected purchases, it's the season of having to make unexpected purchases for yourself and others, and I don't literally need it, and I absolutely would rather any controller money go to a better way for me to play Pop'n at home, or for a Sound Voltex home controller).

I have done payment plans in the past entirely to spread the cost of purchases over time (always via no-interest if paid on time plans, because you're otherwise spending more money for literally no reason; my credit card also never runs a balance between months for this reason), and if I'm actively paying off something, I'm not going to buy another item that costs enough that I'd want to put it on a plan. Contrast if I buy a big item, I might still be tempted to buy another big item later in the month, and while I usually do resist, sometimes I end up biting the bullet on yet another thing that sends cash out of my account and into the abyss.

This entry took a wildly different turn to what I expected to type, but that's life. Life is expensive. Being a grown man is a pain in the ass.

(November 22nd, 2025)

maimai continues to be so much fun. Maimaimaimaimai.

That being said, I have absolutely no good idea how I should tackle slide notes that have an incoming tap note on the same button in the gap of time before you're supposed to start the slide. I just don't know how to read them.

On an unrelated note, I am reminded of how much I like Sound Voltex, but I also can't stand dropping my combo due to misinputs on the lasers. It just doesn't feel right at all, and rarely actually feels like my own fault. Sometimes it totally is, but damn. I also need to learn how to read certain laser patterns and I really do need to just sit on YouTube and watch these charts at home in slow motion... which is more effort than I feel like putting in with how little I play Sound Voltex versus other games.

On a further unrelated note, Taiko no Tatsujin's interface in the arcade is truly awful and I have no words. I bitched about this already, but I am bitching once more.

I am setting up a really lazy homelab with some Raspberry Pis that I have had lying around. I have an unused Pi 4 in the terrible stock case (why did they make a case that seems to be expressly built to cook the machine?) and an old Pi 2. I also have a Pi Zero and Zero W, but they lack Ethernet and I'm too cheap to go buy USB Ethernet adapters for them right now. I would also need to power them somehow, although the Zero models are pretty lenient with power draw, unlike the beefier Pi systems, so I could get away with some old phone chargers, probably.

This article is a log of things I did, troubles I've had, etc. This article will be fairly long. I probably should have made this its own site section, but I cannot be bothered, and I know I won't update quite so often anyway. This article is arguably more for myself than for anyone else, but it documents steps and issues that required a bit of searching to deal with, and thus might be helpful.

The setup

The machines connected are mostly Raspberry Pis, and then my desktop. All the machines are connected to a cheap, unmanaged 8 port switch with some cheap Ethernet cables. Cheap is good. I am rapidly running out of space here, so I don't feel that bad about not having a bigger switch to connect a ton of systems to.

The homelab network has no default gateway to the internet. Several machines have WiFi access, but not all of them. Internet access for those is handled via an HTTP proxy. If the Pi 2 had onboard WiFi, it would have been used as the proxy server, but the Pi 4 will have to do.

USB boot struggles

This was a fucking nightmare. Most of it was my fault for being cheap, but some of it absolutely wasn't.

The Pi 2 was going to boot off of SD, except the SD cards I had were shit. They seem to have developed issues from years of disuse and/or were never fit for this purpose. After quite a lot of troubleshooting, I snapped the faulty cards in half so I wouldn't be fucked over by them in the future. I also was dealing with seemingly flaky SD card readers (and it turns out at least one of them was actually garbage). The sheer amount of faulty hardware in play took hours of time from me. Nothing like flashing an image that dies early on in boot and jumps into an emergency shell... that tells you how it's disabled so you don't actually even get an emergency shell. Amazing.

This ordeal left me with a single 64GB SD card (well, I had more, they were just in use elsewhere), when I had the brilliant idea to sidestep the majority of flaky SD card problems and boot from USB from a spare SSD+SATA cable combo that I had lying around (I really hope this fucking AI bubble bursts soon so I can buy a stack of SSDs on the cheap, because I'm running out).

Trying to boot from SSD on the Pi 2 was a mistake. Huge mistake. One, I'm using one of my limited SSDs in this shitty market where I can't just go and buy another for $20 instead of listing it on eBay so I can make some money, and two, I now need to format a 64GB SD card as FAT32 so I could put the Pi 2 boot firmware on it. The firmware must be present over SD, or the Pi 2 will not boot whatsoever. Terrible design, but they fixed it in later models. Also, three, the Pi 2 is not fast enough to really take any advantage of booting off of an SSD when it comes to speed.

To completely ignore the mistakes I made (that I am also too lazy to document) and get your Pi 2 booted off of SSD anyway, simply open gparted, initialize the SD card with an MBR partition table, and create a single, small partition (I used 512MB, but it can be tiny) at the start of the disk. If you want, you can use the rest of the space for another partition, but at the time, I was trying to avoid depending on SD cards for anything.

I ultimately did not end up using the SSD on the Pi 2, but this was a decision that I made after thinking that I had other problems.

I'm (not) undervolting

The long and short of it is that opening the network settings GUI on a fresh 32-bit Pi OS 13 desktop install can crash the machine, causing a reboot, so don't do that. I immediately thought that I was drawing too much power with Ethernet active, the keyboard and mouse plugged in, and the SSD. The power supply was supposed to be decent (it's an old Canakit Micro-USB one) and thus this shouldn't have been the problem, but drawing too much power over USB is a pretty easy to trip failure mode, and it seemed like the obvious answer, rather than what it actually was: a completely stock install crashes immediately upon trying to set basic settings. When I flashed the image (which validated correctly) to the working SD card, I had the same issue, invalidating any potential power issues (and alleviating my second concern of disk corruption, which plagued me at the start of this due to the garbage SD cards I had).

The solution? Unplug the Ethernet cable, configure your network settings (in my case, the homelab is all static IPs, no DHCP), and then plug it in. As soon as you can, update the machine and reboot. Done.

Proxying

I initially set up Squid as an HTTP proxy on a Pi 4 that was already on the network and had WiFi access to the internet. I put the following in /etc/environment on the target machine:

http_proxy="http://10.128.1.2:3128/"
https_proxy="http://10.128.1.2:3128/"
no_proxy="localhost,127.0.0.1"

I would later find out that I can set this in raspi-config, but it is good to know.

I didn't really change the stock /etc/squid/squid.conf, which seemed to have reasonable defaults... but I know I did something (and forgot to document it, see a bit further down for details). I am also now intensely aware that these environment variables suck immensely. The whole state of setting up a proxy seems to suck immensely. A huge amount of this entire process has been dealing with shit that should have just worked, but I guess dealing with this bullshit is why I am even bothering to set up a homelab; I've gotta learn the hard way.

With all this in place, I could update the system, and the NetworkManager GUI didn't just instantly crash on me after that. However, I have decided to redo everything with lite images instead of the stock desktop ones. I did want to be able to access the machines via RDP, but I also want an RDP experience that isn't abysmally slow and full of strange pitfalls from pre-configured settings conflicting with what I want to do.

I elected to install Xfce on the Pi 4, and I don't know if I will do GUI access to the Pi 2. Could be fun trying to make it usable, but it is a mess. Window Maker is a fantastic window manager that is user friendly and light, and I use it on my main Pi 4, but maybe I just don't need remote GUI access.

Redoing everything

I'm flashing the 64GB SD card for the Pi 2, and the 240GB SSD for the Pi 4. Both systems will run Pi OS 13... and that is probably a mistake for the Pi 2 just due to the sheer weight of it. The machine was vastly more usable on older releases, and in a homelab setting, I probably would be okay with some vulnerabilities to try and exploit and mitigate. I could also just use Pi OS 12, who has LTS updates for a few years still. I won't, but I could.

I uninstalled Squid from my main Pi 4, since it makes turning that machine off take longer, moving it to the other Pi 4, since it also has WiFi to connect to the outside world. I installed a few usual tools (mostly tmus), and installed Xfce to use with Xrdp, which worked immediately.

After using nmtui to set up a connection on the Pi 2 (with the cable unplugged so I didn't trigger whatever nonsense was causing the crash) and using Squid on the Pi 4... I definitely configured something on the original Pi 4 in Squid since I get a 403. Oops. To fix this, uncomment http_access allow localnet and restart Squid (systemctl restart squid.service). This will take a moment, for whatever reason.

Now, I can apt update the Pi 2, and then do an apt full-upgrade (since that is apparently what Pi OS 13 expects). If you get an issue, set the date (for example, sudo date -s "22 FEB 2026 1:36:00"). This is an issue, since the Pi 2 doesn't have a direct internet connection, it merely gets an HTTP proxy.

To solve this, I set up the other Pi 4 as a time server, and configured the Pi 2 to get time from it. This kind of thing is absolutely the kind of mini-project that I even set this homelab up for in the first place, having problems and solving them. It was comically easy: install chrony on the Pi 4, add allow 10.128.0.0/16 to /etc/chrony/chrony.conf, and restart the chrony service. On the Pi 2, I edited /etc/systemd/timesyncd.conf to point to the Pi 4 (the line you want to add is NTP=your address here, and that's it.

Sambaaa

Installing Samba is easy. sudo apt install samba, then sudo nano /etc/samba/smb.conf to set up the share. Most of the steps I followed were from this Ubuntu tutorial that needs nearly no steps changed. Having that SSD attached to the Pi 4 means I have a lot of space that I want to use. I was going to write more for this bit, but I cannot be bothered.

Other plans

I want to add more machines, of course, but I just don't have many available. I do have an old Core 2 machine, but it's not something I'd particularly want to leave running, sucking way more power than a Pi, and it is a fairly flaky machine in general. I could just have it up sometimes. It is mostly just taking up room. I am tempted to make it a Windows 7 server, since it isn't like I'd need any more Linux systems to mess with.

I think I need to configure Xrdp's security settings. It uses TLS by default, but I think it's set up to allow older clients to negotiate the security level. I also want to set up a certificate that isn't just the default one. I am increasingly of the opinion that permissive defaults suck, but I also get why they are the way they are. It still sucks. I guess it doesn't matter for my threat model (someone cutting into the wire would be able to MITM me, and that's it), but it does bug me.

I need to label which machine is which. There are 5 machines in the /16 network that I set up (totally overkill, but if I need another one not directly hooked up to this, I'll just do like 10.32.x.x or whatever). They're all named after Precure characters, so I don't have to memorize the numbers, but sometimes I do forget which one is which.

I probably might set up a SOCKS proxy on the Pi 4 so I'm not limited to HTTP/HTTPS over the Internet for machines that aren't on the WiFi, but I don't think it really aligns with my design goals. Machines not on WiFi don't really need much network access beyond that, and if I do want to access things from the WiFi, I'll just RDP into the Pi 4 and connect to those from there.

I definitely need to find something to run on the Pi 2. It is currently just a problem client that I am finding solutions for (which is a great thing to have on a homelab, but I feel like it still should serve something useful). The Pi 4 is serving RDP (I think I still need to configure some stuff there, even though it otherwise works out-of-the-box) and it serves NTP. The Pi 2 is basically just something to SSH into.

I might need to set up WebOne as a proxy if I get some really old machine into the homelab and I want it on the Internet, but that's not hard. Definitely not very secure since it breaks HTTPS on purpose, but it doesn't really matter for anything I would be doing on that sort of machine if I get one.

The Pi 4 gets a little hot. I am too cheap to get another case right now. I disabled the boost clock setting since all that will do is make it hotter, and the stock Pi 4 clock doesn't feel that slow. I think I set the conservative CPU governor to help with that, but didn't actually have that persist on reboot, so I might need to fix that. I might probably lower the minimum and maximum CPU clocks slightly, too.

Still, it only really gets hot when web browsing over RDP, and I'm mostly doing that so I can have docs open on my laptop and then easily go over to the desk area and log in to continue looking things up. If I had a better case (why is the stock case so bad, anyway; why is there almost no cooling potential in it), I wouldn't do any of these things. My main Pi 4 is in a CanaKit case with a fan hooked up to 3.3v (5v is too loud and it doesn't get hot enough to need it). Since this machine is meant to be always on, I would probably look into a heatsink case and undo any underclocking at that point.

Abandoned plans

I wanted to run 9front on the Pi 2. After quite a lot of fiddling, I decided that every single thing in 9front was too many steps and not enough documentation and I didn't feel like bothering with it. I did get a very hacky solution going with the Pi 2 and drawterm, but doing something as simple as expanding the 9front disk image to fill the entire drive was an ordeal that I gave up on. Plan 9 is an aggressively alien system, one that also just makes a handful of bad choices (almost everything to do with keyboard cursor control, for example) and refuses to change (especially since anyone bothering with it regularly wouldn't even want to change a lot of these things). I was completely disinterested in going for help on IRC with things that should have been written down. Due to the lack of disk resizing, the stock 9front on Pi image seems to be geared for being a thin client for a desktop 9front CPU server (admittedly, this is a reasonable assumption, but if I want to mess about with 9front's distributed nature, it is really easy to get a bunch of Pis onto a network). If I was willing to go through a lot of effort, I could build 9front myself and generate an image with a custom size, but fuck that. Everything in 9front is that much hassle, and while I want this homelab to be a learning experience, I don't want to go through lots of pain for seemingly trivial tasks. That era of my life is behind me. I want computing to be convenient and easy.

I also wasn't going to use the other Pi 4, but it just makes sense to separate it from my "desktop" Pi 4 (which isn't my actual desktop). Plus, it gives me an excuse to use this 2GB Pi 4 that was yet another drawer filler (my main one is 4GB).

In closing

This whole setup is pretty fun to mess about with. Networking is a big gap in my skillset, so I decided that I really should just go and try to fix that. I will probably edit this post if I do a little bit more. If I do a lot more, I'll make a followup post.